Lol

@ Alex who said my hair grew really fast.....

Video Fab

So I do have to give the BG props, or maybe I should say the Europeans in general. There music sounds is truly like no other, and they are so eclectic. Now usually there are specific shows that cater to a specific styleof music. And while you may have shows like the former Total Request Live (MTV) those shows tend to really only cover pop music. Songs that are on the billboard charts.

While I must admit, at times it seems like the redundancy of Ciara's Love, Sex and Magic, or T.I.'s Dead and Gone is gonna make me slit a wrist, the music channels do play a wide variety of music styles.

For example, I came across this lil gem, Agnes. This song is fire (hey Alex). I got put on to some rock jams too (uumm Kings of Leon). There is also another spanish song, tu cafe. Thats a banga...

The other groups, on the scene right now are good ones too. N-Dubz, Tinchy Strider. They all use kinda techno beats but the lyrics are cool and the sound is something you can move to. My new joint is "Too Many Men" this song is hilarious.....

I know im missin a lot of music in the states. The Dream is everywhere, Fabolous seems to be back on the scene and a couple of new faces on the come up, Drake.

But for now, Europe's eclectic music tastes trumps what they got goin on in the states....

what does it all mean???

In my morose and lonesome state of being, ive been pondering the meanin of life. I know, that sounds so...deep and heavy. But its the truth folks. Ive always envied those people who seem to know what they want to do with their lives, and actually have some type of direction they are headed in, or a path to follow. Me, uumm I cant even think past a 2-week time span if that. I think its kinda cool to be free as a bird......

These are just random thoughts, but just follow me for a sec.....so I saw this pic of this girl I used to be real cool with. And I mean we were real cool back in the day. I thought she was big shit poppin at one point. But now, uumm thats a negativo!!! In the pic, homegirl was lookin mighty jacked up. Hair all fucked up, lookin like she had one too many Burger King double whoppers with bacon.... Now why she was walkin on the damn planet let alone around NYC like that is beyond me, but anyway.....Seein her like that honestly made me feel good. At my age, doin what I do, I look damn good. The friendship didnt end THAT bad, it kinda just dissipated. But she DID look horrible.....

Which brings me to my next point. I am a firm believer in "out of sight, out of mind" People you call friends who, unless they see you, could give too shits about you. And im talkin bout real friens. People you were with all the time on a regular basis. But I suppose things cant always be the same, and when things change, feelings and actions change.

I also think that people are in your life for seasons. They touch you, teach you a few things, and make you realize what they are supposed to. They play a role and then POOF, they are gone. The experience might be good and it might be bad, but you learn something from every experience, every exchange.

I guess I just feel so out the loop. I used to be really cool with a lot of people, but when i travel, its like those relationships are lost. When I was in japan, it was so difficult to stay friends with a lot of people.

Oh, ok so another random thought....grad school. Been checkin out a few things in my spare time and found this really good program Im interested in. I supose being proactive and having a plan doesnt help one bit. The program was really good, and its at a great school in NY.

Oh so to connect this whole blog and so that its not just extra random, my point was why have friends when you can just be a loner???? hahahahaha

LEarn to depend on yourself and if people are in your corner then they should be there regardless the situation or the distance. LEarn to depend on yourself.......AND finally, you can always take comfort in the fact that when things dont go your way, and you are in a rough spot, you can alway look at others and how bad they are doing to cheer yourself up. That sounded so bad, but those who know me know damn well I meant it, and that Im such a....yeah you were thinkin it, a bitch! hahahahaha

At least I know that, and Im cool with it....Lookin forward to an easy work week.

ciao kiddies

The Cheese Stands Alone

So its test day (this past thursday). The final reckoning....Reemption day....Im settling the final score. and the only thing I can think to say, is the cheese stands alone. Its the last text of the school year for my 9g and 10g classes. All the work we have been studying for the past 2 months was in the test. So all that not paying attention, doing other work in my class, throwing a hissy fit cuz folks didnt want to do certain work. and of course on test prep days, they some stud act like they dont care. but all that has come back to bite people in the ass, and on test day, you are all alone and have to account for something.

For the 9g they had an essay. I went over with them what I wanted them to do for an opinion essay, you know, how to write the intro, and what goes in the body of the essay. The students almost had a heart attack the day I told them they would be tested on this stuff. Naturally they already know everything and I suppose they felt they didnt need to review this in class. But Im sure some folks didnt do as well and they think they did. One girl didnt even write anything but her name on the test. Altho that disappointed me a lot, I cant say I didnt expect it or was a bit surprsied. I gave the class 2 questions and they were to choose one, and write their opinion on the topic by answering a questions. For example, Do what kids see on tv effect their behavior, or when learning a foreign language, do you think it's necessary to travel to the place where that language is spoken? We went over these topics in class and im eager to see what their responses were. I feel like im gonna have to break a few hearts if the essay is not written how it should be...oh wells

So this was a decent test. There was no possible way to cheat. Especially since I had 4 versions of the test with different questions. So the first half of the class could have told the people in the second half what the questions were, but there was no guarantee they would necessarily get that question. And since it was based on opinion, there really was no way to cheat. But the 10g was a bit different.

There test was on Romeo and Juliet, and a reading we covered in the textbook. And let me just say, uumm seriously guys?!?!?! Not only did I devote one class to a test prep, covering EXACTLY what would be on the test, but the damn questions were taken DIRECTLY from the textbook. We answered questions in class and I just took those and put them on the test. And for Romeo and Juliet, all they had to do was paraphrase what several quotes said. And there wasnt THAT much stuff to study.

But as you can imagine, folks were goin above and voyond to get their cheat on. Using cell phones (WTF?!?!?) asking other people for answers...in BG as if I couldnt understand, cheat sheets. And again, I cant say I was surprised. But honestly, I was diappointed. I didnt think the test was super hard, and if folks managed to pay attention in class (1) then study just a LIL BIT (2) they would have done fine.

For this reason, I had to make 5 different verisons of the 10g test. YES I made 5 different verisons. One girl in one class actually wrote what was on her test on a sheet of paper so that she could share it with someone in the nest class (or someone who was absent that day i suspect). I caught her with it and tore it up. Its funny cuz I dont even think she did that well on her own damn test. I had to announce to the class that 1. there were several different versions of the test and that 2. the other class DEFINATELY didnt have the same test as them. This one kid kept askin this girl for answers and I would look at her with the face that said you betta not say one word! She looked at me, smiled and shrugged her shoulders as if to say I dont know.

Cheating really is pointless, esp since the test was so damn easy and was straight from the damn textbook. I have no sympathy for these lil jokers!

I hope I dont break people's hearts with their end of the year grades. I look at it like this: how you gon get mad at me cuz I give you the grade you deserve. You been comin to class listenin to music, not doin work, not takin notes, tryna cheat on the test, and expect me to give you a decent grade. Sikeeeeeeeeeeeeee, not gonna happen playa. For those students who did what they were supposed to do, you will be given the grade you deserve. Again, I have no sympathy or qualms about failin people or givin them low grades, esp since aug its on its way and ima be out this bitch......hahahahaha

Rage against the MAN

Who is the man? What has he done to me? Why am I raging against him?

Well I was on the tram the other day like any other usual day when Im getting around in Sofia. When you get on the trams here its unlike NY where there is jsut one door at the fron of the bus and you have to pay first, then get on. There are three doors that open and there are small metal boxes scattered along each side of the tram where you punch a paper ticket. BUT there isnt anyone there to ensure that you indeed punch the ticket and "pay your fare" This si such a shame for someone like me, cuz to be completey honest, I NEVER punch a damn thing, which means I am riding around on the trams for free. ANd its such a shame too cuz I see so many people who actually DO punch there tram ticket and throw them away. So many honest people. On tues there was me and 2 other people on the tram, 2 girls. These heifers actually got up to punch their tickets with just 3 people on the damn tram. I was so confused. There wasnt anyone there to say anything to them if they hadnt punched their ticket.....

But the plot thickens. There are secret ticket checkers. They get on the tram, some dressed in pfficial uniforms, others dressed in plain clothes with a hidden badge, and chck all the tickets on the tram. If you donthave a punched ticket, you can get a fine of up to 15-20 leva I think. I am always on the lookout for these folks....

So on tues, Im so excited cuz I just finished shoppin and Im kinda tired. A seat opened up and I jumped in it. It just happened to be in front of one of the tram doors. Wouldnt you know a secret ticket checker just pops up out of nowhere and starts checkin tickets. I quickly break out the spare ticket I keep in my wallet JUST for this type of situation and quickly punch that joint. When she gets to me, she asks why I just punched my ticket. Tryna not to sound like I know Bulgarian too well, I ask her to repeat herself, then explain to her that I JUST got on the train and that I had so many bags that I needed a sec to find my ticket blah blah blah. She gave me the BULLSHIT BITCH look but kept it movin.....hahahahhaha

I feel like this: 1. if the government gave 2 shits about if people bout tram tickets and paid to get on the tram, they would properly make sure it happened. But since the system is basically one of honor, some people buy tickets and punch them, others dont. I am one of the others dont.....lol 2. Most of the time, I am only going from one street to the mall, which is like a 10 minute walk. Since I am extremely lazy I just take the tram. Why pay 2 leva (one ticket is one lev but from vitosha to the mall it takes 2 trams) when Im only going a short distance?!?! 3. Ive put up with so much bullshit in this damn country, I deserve a lil retribution. I think of this as gettin back at the man for all the oppression ive suffered while in BG.

Im tellin, its the lil things and the way you rationalize that get you through......and damnit Im with Leah on this shit: when in the hell with the school year be OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR?!?!?!