It was so cold this morning.....
Today (sat) is a work day, cuz we had a day off from school on may 5th. You already know im pissed.
But it gets better....May we were on the second shift, so I could look forward to sleeping in late and class in the afternoon. BUT for today the school decided we should be on the first shift. Class at 7:30 AM. im extra salty.
Oh wait, did I mention how cold it is today. At 7:30 AM while I was shiverin in my black bomber jacket and luggin my bag, i just wasnt in the mood. I just kept thinkin how I DID NOT want to work. AND how I was hopin that since it was so damn early, not many students would come. Horrible, I know.
BUT I just watched Jeremih's video for Birthday Sex, and damnit was that joint steamy. I almost (no disrepect Poppa) wished that was me in the video. He is sexy as hell and the song is hot. Uumm folks, Ima need yall to google that video, youtube it or somethin. Just get on it ASAP!
One more class and im free to go home, lay around and watch tennis in my undies. Oh and pack for Greece tomorrow (where Ill be on the beach taking a break from work).
Sorry you cant be me Bitches!!!!
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Sonnet #18
Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimmed,
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance, or nature's changing course untrimmed:
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st,
Nor shall death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st,
So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee
Just thought Id put yall up on a lil Shakespeare. This is his sonnet #18 and I thought it was just amazing. The 10 class and I worked on Shakespeare a lil. Man, I wish someone would write something like this for me (insert Poppa here).
Just an FYI, he wrote this to a man and it is speculated that it was his lover altho Shakespeare was married with kids. But hey, what the hell does that matter these days.....
*singing: So live ya life eeh eeh eeh eeh*
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimmed,
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance, or nature's changing course untrimmed:
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st,
Nor shall death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st,
So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee
Just thought Id put yall up on a lil Shakespeare. This is his sonnet #18 and I thought it was just amazing. The 10 class and I worked on Shakespeare a lil. Man, I wish someone would write something like this for me (insert Poppa here).
Just an FYI, he wrote this to a man and it is speculated that it was his lover altho Shakespeare was married with kids. But hey, what the hell does that matter these days.....
*singing: So live ya life eeh eeh eeh eeh*
June is for STARS
Well Well Well, that special time of year is upon us folks, yep you guessed it MY BIRTHDAY. The most glorious day that brought about the birth of the great one, Lady Sha Sha herself, or Shantay to most of you. It is said that the heavens parted, and she descended upon Earth wraps in the softest of silks, with a white light about her. She was given to a man and women to call their daughter and blessed this world with her beauty and wit.
Now I dont know where this came from, or who said this, but damnit they hit the nail on the head!
Anyway, Ive decided that since my birthday is coming up June 16 (for those who are in the dark) I should post some old pics of me, and share some fun facts about my self that will interest you. Ill be featuring pics from my college years, up til recently, and be sharing things about my childhood and other facts that I know you all are dying to read about.
Let the festivities begin bitches!!!!!
Oh and because I do believe that June is for stars, Id like to shout out all the Gemini's (hey EZ) and June babies including my big sis (June 10) and my other mom (June 21). If you have a b-day in June list your date so I can shout you out to, cuz your almost as important as me!
Believe in you!
Now I dont know where this came from, or who said this, but damnit they hit the nail on the head!
Anyway, Ive decided that since my birthday is coming up June 16 (for those who are in the dark) I should post some old pics of me, and share some fun facts about my self that will interest you. Ill be featuring pics from my college years, up til recently, and be sharing things about my childhood and other facts that I know you all are dying to read about.
Let the festivities begin bitches!!!!!
Oh and because I do believe that June is for stars, Id like to shout out all the Gemini's (hey EZ) and June babies including my big sis (June 10) and my other mom (June 21). If you have a b-day in June list your date so I can shout you out to, cuz your almost as important as me!
Believe in you!
Shocked....
One of my students asked me yesterday if I will be here next year. I was a lil bit confused by the questions and didnt know what to say. Then she said will I teach her class next year. I tried to explain that I wasnt sure but probably would. I actually answered in BG (and she understood) whcih put a smile on my face.
She must not read my blog tho, thank goodness. She is from the 9g class. And altho she is one of the more serious students, its no big secret that I kinda despise that class and wish they would all die....hahahahahaha just kiddin. But I do think that as 10 graders next year they will be shocked at all the work that they will have to do. I must give my 10 g credit cuz we did a lot of work this year and they worked very hard. The 9g kinda had a more leisure year cuz I didnt have much work from the textbook to do with them. I was kinda confused as to what I should have been teaching them where as with the 10g I had an entire section of the textbook. That meant that i worked from the textbook, but also had a guideline to use just in case I wanted to steer away from the textbook (which I did a few times). I didnt have to use the activities in the textbook, but could do different ones that got the same message across through more fun and interesting activities. AND the 10g were more serious and more willing to work.
Anyway, I think the thought of being here another year teaching that class kinda caught me off guard....lol
She must not read my blog tho, thank goodness. She is from the 9g class. And altho she is one of the more serious students, its no big secret that I kinda despise that class and wish they would all die....hahahahahaha just kiddin. But I do think that as 10 graders next year they will be shocked at all the work that they will have to do. I must give my 10 g credit cuz we did a lot of work this year and they worked very hard. The 9g kinda had a more leisure year cuz I didnt have much work from the textbook to do with them. I was kinda confused as to what I should have been teaching them where as with the 10g I had an entire section of the textbook. That meant that i worked from the textbook, but also had a guideline to use just in case I wanted to steer away from the textbook (which I did a few times). I didnt have to use the activities in the textbook, but could do different ones that got the same message across through more fun and interesting activities. AND the 10g were more serious and more willing to work.
Anyway, I think the thought of being here another year teaching that class kinda caught me off guard....lol
Greece=the beach
A good friend and colleague of mine invited me on a trip to Greece with her and her students. She teaches the 8g and wanted take them on a school trip when the weather was nice. I decided it might be fun, esp since we are going June 1-3 which are school days. And just in case you are extra slow, that means I get to miss 3 whole days of work.....let the excitement begin!!!!
The trip is relatively cheap. We are going by bus to a place called Olympic Beach, not to far from Thessaloniki. What I wasnt paying attention to tho, is the fact that its not only called Olympic Beach (as in the name of the town/city we will be) it actually is a damn beach. Which again if you are as slow as I am, means that people will be swimming.......with bathing suits on......
Why is this cause for alarm you ask? Well I was so damn excited cuz I lost 14 pounds, I stopped paying attention to what I was eating. Which in the past few weeks has been damn near everything in sight. I KNOW Ive gained weight and I am certain I will look absolutely disgusting in a bathing suit. And unlike those people who are comfortable showing their jelly rolls, fat stomachs and thunder thighs, clearly wearing bikinis when they should be wearing XXXL tees and shorts, I WILL NOT embarrass myself.
Now truth be told, I havent had a beach body in years. And I mean in years. The last time I even owned a bathing suit was in high school. I went to Virginia Beach with my fam. We took pics and when I saw how big my stomach looked, I almost threw up in my mouth. I was more alarmed at the fact that no one bothered to let me know how horrible I looked (image means a lot to me if you havent noticed).
I bought a bathing suit when I first got to site cuz I thought I might go to the beach. It didnt turn out that way and the bathing suit still has the damn tags on them. I dont know if I should bring it or not to Greece, but just know if I do, Im for damn sure covering up with a tee shirt of some sort to hide my huge stomach!!
The trip is relatively cheap. We are going by bus to a place called Olympic Beach, not to far from Thessaloniki. What I wasnt paying attention to tho, is the fact that its not only called Olympic Beach (as in the name of the town/city we will be) it actually is a damn beach. Which again if you are as slow as I am, means that people will be swimming.......with bathing suits on......
Why is this cause for alarm you ask? Well I was so damn excited cuz I lost 14 pounds, I stopped paying attention to what I was eating. Which in the past few weeks has been damn near everything in sight. I KNOW Ive gained weight and I am certain I will look absolutely disgusting in a bathing suit. And unlike those people who are comfortable showing their jelly rolls, fat stomachs and thunder thighs, clearly wearing bikinis when they should be wearing XXXL tees and shorts, I WILL NOT embarrass myself.
Now truth be told, I havent had a beach body in years. And I mean in years. The last time I even owned a bathing suit was in high school. I went to Virginia Beach with my fam. We took pics and when I saw how big my stomach looked, I almost threw up in my mouth. I was more alarmed at the fact that no one bothered to let me know how horrible I looked (image means a lot to me if you havent noticed).
I bought a bathing suit when I first got to site cuz I thought I might go to the beach. It didnt turn out that way and the bathing suit still has the damn tags on them. I dont know if I should bring it or not to Greece, but just know if I do, Im for damn sure covering up with a tee shirt of some sort to hide my huge stomach!!
Your own Katmandu
'You really must become a writer,'' she said. 'And you must get out of this deadly town, too-as soon as you can. You must find what I should have had the courage to look for,' she said, 'what we should all have the courage to look for.'
"What is that?" I said.
Her answer was this: "Your own Katmandu."
--excerpt from Kurt Vonnegut's novel Deadeye Dick
We are reading 2 excerpts from this novel in my 10g class, and I thought this excerpt was amazing. I think a lot of time students lack encouragement from their teachers and parents. Sometimes our job as older people is to recognize and nuture talent we see in younger people. They need direction and help to understand and realize their full potential.
This made me think of myself when I was in high school. I pretty much was a well rounded kid: always got good grades, was ahead of my class in math and played sports. I had no idea what I wanted to do with myself going in to college but I knew I was interested in Japanese and traveling. It wasnt til I took freshman english that my teacher told me I wrote pretty well. I got an A in the class when most people (from what he said) only got B's and C's. I never really paid much attention to this tho. Then in my senior year I took a Black Studies course that involved writing and the teacher told me that I wrote exceptionally well. I took an independent studies course with her the next semester and we developed my writing skills. Had someone told me prior to this and more improtantly had I listened, I think I would have double majored in International studies and english. Ah well.....
This doesnt really apply to people who dont teach or work with youth I suppose. But it just occurred to me that sometimes younger people are so caught up in other things that they dont take notice to what's special about them and sometimes it takes an older more wiser person to point things out to them.
The second part of the excerpt was kinda wack. The boy tells his parents that he wants to be a writer and they encourage him to do otherwise. He ends up gettin a degree in pharmacy and ends up workin some deadend job selling watches, perfumes and cigs. Later he enters a playwright contest and wins. I wish I could read the entire book. It sounds interesting just from these 2 excerpts.
Well anyway, if you havent already done so, find out what makes you happy. A lot of times I think we are scared to follow our dreams, and be great. Or maybe just lazy and dont want to put in the effort to make our dreams come true.
Whatever the case, you should try to find your own katmandu at some point.....
"What is that?" I said.
Her answer was this: "Your own Katmandu."
--excerpt from Kurt Vonnegut's novel Deadeye Dick
We are reading 2 excerpts from this novel in my 10g class, and I thought this excerpt was amazing. I think a lot of time students lack encouragement from their teachers and parents. Sometimes our job as older people is to recognize and nuture talent we see in younger people. They need direction and help to understand and realize their full potential.
This made me think of myself when I was in high school. I pretty much was a well rounded kid: always got good grades, was ahead of my class in math and played sports. I had no idea what I wanted to do with myself going in to college but I knew I was interested in Japanese and traveling. It wasnt til I took freshman english that my teacher told me I wrote pretty well. I got an A in the class when most people (from what he said) only got B's and C's. I never really paid much attention to this tho. Then in my senior year I took a Black Studies course that involved writing and the teacher told me that I wrote exceptionally well. I took an independent studies course with her the next semester and we developed my writing skills. Had someone told me prior to this and more improtantly had I listened, I think I would have double majored in International studies and english. Ah well.....
This doesnt really apply to people who dont teach or work with youth I suppose. But it just occurred to me that sometimes younger people are so caught up in other things that they dont take notice to what's special about them and sometimes it takes an older more wiser person to point things out to them.
The second part of the excerpt was kinda wack. The boy tells his parents that he wants to be a writer and they encourage him to do otherwise. He ends up gettin a degree in pharmacy and ends up workin some deadend job selling watches, perfumes and cigs. Later he enters a playwright contest and wins. I wish I could read the entire book. It sounds interesting just from these 2 excerpts.
Well anyway, if you havent already done so, find out what makes you happy. A lot of times I think we are scared to follow our dreams, and be great. Or maybe just lazy and dont want to put in the effort to make our dreams come true.
Whatever the case, you should try to find your own katmandu at some point.....
Earth to Jason...
Ok Jason, just so that you stay in the loop, ive decided to run down the past few blog posts for you.
I recently posted a blog entitled "School is for what now..." in which I asked the students their thoughts on why they come to school everyday, and exactly what they should be doing. Well most of the responses were of course stifling to me cuz a lot of the replies were that in school a lot of the students sleep, play cards and basically do what they want with no repercussions. Mind you NOT ALL students do this, but most of the responses were like this. I posted the outsome of the discussion, and some kid (he left no name) posted a comment saying that the students were just a lil lazy, and that it might be hard to figure out that the students are just fucking tired at the end of the fuckin year....or something to that extent.
I responded to this particular comment in the next post entitled "In response" cuz I did not like that way this student commented on my original post.
Then I thought that I should make my blog private, but couldnt figure out how to do it, so I posted the question so someone could clue me in. But eventually I found it and made my blog private, but then thought that if it was private the student who wrote that comment wouldnt be able to read my response and its important that this person reads what I wrote. So I made my blog public again.....hahahahaha
sorry to confuse you......you havent posted anything recently......
I recently posted a blog entitled "School is for what now..." in which I asked the students their thoughts on why they come to school everyday, and exactly what they should be doing. Well most of the responses were of course stifling to me cuz a lot of the replies were that in school a lot of the students sleep, play cards and basically do what they want with no repercussions. Mind you NOT ALL students do this, but most of the responses were like this. I posted the outsome of the discussion, and some kid (he left no name) posted a comment saying that the students were just a lil lazy, and that it might be hard to figure out that the students are just fucking tired at the end of the fuckin year....or something to that extent.
I responded to this particular comment in the next post entitled "In response" cuz I did not like that way this student commented on my original post.
Then I thought that I should make my blog private, but couldnt figure out how to do it, so I posted the question so someone could clue me in. But eventually I found it and made my blog private, but then thought that if it was private the student who wrote that comment wouldnt be able to read my response and its important that this person reads what I wrote. So I made my blog public again.....hahahahaha
sorry to confuse you......you havent posted anything recently......
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Ha
Its private Bitches!!!!
wait i want whoever posted that comment to read my response...i figured out how to make it private but it will stay open to the public for now!
wait i want whoever posted that comment to read my response...i figured out how to make it private but it will stay open to the public for now!
BG Remix
I posted a vid of this girl singing a Rihanna song a while back. Well she struck again. For the senior celebration she sang Listen by Beyonce and I must say, homegirl can really blow....she also sang a Duffy song, but it takes too long to uplaod the vids so just enjoy this one!
Senior celebration pics
Lincoln and Vanche
Hilarious ass skit
my dear tsveti....
look at the cute kids...
Busy weekend
On fri we celebrated the graduation of the seniors. And I must admit, it was such a great show. Lincoln, the vol who worked at the school prior to me showed up and surprised the students. That vid that I was so worried about but did at the very last min seemed so out of place. Of course no one told me the celebration on fri was to honor the seniors. We showed up together and decided to rock a new dress:
It was so hot outside, that I thought it would be nice to break out this new white dress Ive had stashed in my closest. I thought it might be something nice to wear than the usual jeans and sneaks I always have on...wait, Im getting side tracked....
So the show...it was AMAZING. The lil kids were so cute. The performed several dances, sang songs, and they were just the cutest things. A few older kids sang songs and I was very surprised cuz I didnt know they could sing so well. I asked the class if anyone wanted to do anything for the show and a few students said yes, so I assumed they just werent interested. 2 girls from my class sang songs and I was so excited!
The prom was also this past saturday, and that too was AMAZING. I met up with the students and some colleagues and we drove over to the hall we had reserved. I was sooooooo surprised. Now I really have nothing to compare this too cuz I missed my prom, but it just seemed so different in the whole sense of the word prom. First, all types of onlookers and people were standing in the street. They were roped off on the sidewalks and police were directing traffic in the street. There was a red carpet, and after everyone was individually dropped off, their picture was taken. Uptairs was nicely decorated and the students looks gorgeous. Some of the dresses were questionable, but overall everyone looked really nice. The food was amazing. The students are allowed to drink alcohol now, so they were toasting and smoking. It was wonderful. The music was kinda suspect (the makarena, and jailhouse rock among others) but I got up and danced a few times. Overall it reminded me of how young IM NOT! hahahaha
I dropped a couple of leva for this outfit. Deep purple strapless dress, clutch, silver accents, and pumps. I has such a good time.
I left the ball about 1:30 cuz there was a parade sun morning bright and early. It was in celebration of the Bulgarian alphabet and Cyril and Metodi very famous BGs who pioneered in Bulgarian education. The parade was interesting, but mostly very quick. My school had this huge wooden looking banner that read the name of the school and the smaller kids carried colored flags and ballons. The celebration on fri and the parade sun made me realize just how involved the younger kids are. The older kids were pretty much no where to be found (probably somewhere studying hahahaha). Anyway I decided to go light, jeans a tee and some sandals. It was BURNING up that day. My allergies were kicking into overdrive, itchy eyes, stuffy nose, itchy ears......
Monday there was no class and I wasnt complaining. My good friend had a b-day party so I met with some other people at the school and we went by bus to party with her. There was delicious food, awesome music, great singing, dancing and just a good time all around. The b-day cake was banging!!!! I felt so stuffed and full by the time I got home. I woke up about 5:30 AM with stomach pains and was worried for a while. But after I popped some pills, I was as good as new and in the bed again.
What a weekend......
In response
Comment left after my last post:
Yes we have goals and most of us will complete them!!! Maybe we r a little lazy but it's normal 4 our age. First of all we can't think only about school! Second of all we have many subjects - it's not only the English class, and we have to think 4 them too. We have many tests(2-3, sometimes 4 in a week) and we have to study 4 them:) Don't u think that we r just tired or it's easier to think that we r lazzy asses or that we haven't future and we will clean toilers or something like this. It's hard to figure out that we r tired in the fucking end of the fucking year!by student in Petar Beron school :)
First of all, most of the comments I made were in regard to the 9th graders and their points of view. At this point I think most kids that age do not like school, so thats why i consider them lazy.
Second of all that post was based on a general conversation that had to do with things said in response to a question i asked. I honestly think it is NOT cuz you are tired. The fact of the matter is, this is behavior that has been exhibited over the entire year, NOT just at the end of the school year. There are countless times when I come to school and a lot of the students (not all) DO NOT do anything AT ALL. Some of you think that I cant see when you are doing other homework, or talking to your friends about something else. But I certainly know you are not doing the work that I have assigned. Ill give any assignment and its only half done, but you expect a good grade for it. I give a test and its obvious that a lot of students havent studied for it and some CHEAT on my tests. My thoughts and opinions are based on ACTIONS and behavior I have observed over the ENTIRE year. So dont come at me with this BS.
What number am I on? oh yeah third what the hell ELSE are you thinking of? a job? uumm no cuz most of the students in my class dont work. sports, nope not that either. what else is there? your social life. Im sorry but I am a firm believer that at this age (the age of my students is about 15-17) you should largely be thinking about school THEN other stuff like having fun.
Fourth I just want to be VERY clear that I DO NOT think that ALL the students in my school are lazy. I think some of them are very smart and do work and do their homework and are wonderful students. BUT the students who I DO THINK are lazy, are the ones who listen to music in my class when they should be doing work, the ones who when I give an assignment always huff and puff and say in BG няьма смисъл, or the ones who dont hand in GRADED assignments, or the ones who talk in the back of class with their friends when they think im not listening, or the ones who stare into space when I write something on the board even tho they should be copying it . I could go on and on......Im not saying that all students from my school will grow up to scrub toilets. My point is, which you CLEARLY may have missed, is that if you dont work hard to learn what you need to now, you wont know anything that might help you live well in the future.
Fifth, I dont know who the hell you are, but you were not invited to read my blog, nor were you welcome to leave retarded comments like the one you left. A comment that clearly is providing a justification for something you think to be false but which I think you need to realize is true.
And last but not least, PLEASE I repeat please do not come on MY blog and post comments with curses in them. These are MY opinions and observations. Your comment will officially be deleted after this....
oh, and why should it matter that its the end of the year. school is school and work is work. shit Im tired too, but I come to school professional everyday, I think you need to learn to do the same!
ok, im done....
wait, i just realized that you might actually tryna be insult my intelligence "its hard to figure out we r tired in the fucking end of the fuckkin year"....NO its not hard to figure this out if that WERE the case with everyone. It must be HARD for YOU to figure out then that not everyone is tired, and that some of you are just lazy ass students. Dont ever try to insinuate that I might not know what the hell im talking.I think you must fall into this category of lazy ass tudents since you feel so strongly about the topic you had to write this comment about it.
ok, that comment made me mad, but ima let it go....this right here, surpasses Foolishness altogether. this right here is what we call bitchassness at its best! (hey P. Diddy)
(insert stank ass look with a neck roll here)....NOW, Im done
Yes we have goals and most of us will complete them!!! Maybe we r a little lazy but it's normal 4 our age. First of all we can't think only about school! Second of all we have many subjects - it's not only the English class, and we have to think 4 them too. We have many tests(2-3, sometimes 4 in a week) and we have to study 4 them:) Don't u think that we r just tired or it's easier to think that we r lazzy asses or that we haven't future and we will clean toilers or something like this. It's hard to figure out that we r tired in the fucking end of the fucking year!by student in Petar Beron school :)
First of all, most of the comments I made were in regard to the 9th graders and their points of view. At this point I think most kids that age do not like school, so thats why i consider them lazy.
Second of all that post was based on a general conversation that had to do with things said in response to a question i asked. I honestly think it is NOT cuz you are tired. The fact of the matter is, this is behavior that has been exhibited over the entire year, NOT just at the end of the school year. There are countless times when I come to school and a lot of the students (not all) DO NOT do anything AT ALL. Some of you think that I cant see when you are doing other homework, or talking to your friends about something else. But I certainly know you are not doing the work that I have assigned. Ill give any assignment and its only half done, but you expect a good grade for it. I give a test and its obvious that a lot of students havent studied for it and some CHEAT on my tests. My thoughts and opinions are based on ACTIONS and behavior I have observed over the ENTIRE year. So dont come at me with this BS.
What number am I on? oh yeah third what the hell ELSE are you thinking of? a job? uumm no cuz most of the students in my class dont work. sports, nope not that either. what else is there? your social life. Im sorry but I am a firm believer that at this age (the age of my students is about 15-17) you should largely be thinking about school THEN other stuff like having fun.
Fourth I just want to be VERY clear that I DO NOT think that ALL the students in my school are lazy. I think some of them are very smart and do work and do their homework and are wonderful students. BUT the students who I DO THINK are lazy, are the ones who listen to music in my class when they should be doing work, the ones who when I give an assignment always huff and puff and say in BG няьма смисъл, or the ones who dont hand in GRADED assignments, or the ones who talk in the back of class with their friends when they think im not listening, or the ones who stare into space when I write something on the board even tho they should be copying it . I could go on and on......Im not saying that all students from my school will grow up to scrub toilets. My point is, which you CLEARLY may have missed, is that if you dont work hard to learn what you need to now, you wont know anything that might help you live well in the future.
Fifth, I dont know who the hell you are, but you were not invited to read my blog, nor were you welcome to leave retarded comments like the one you left. A comment that clearly is providing a justification for something you think to be false but which I think you need to realize is true.
And last but not least, PLEASE I repeat please do not come on MY blog and post comments with curses in them. These are MY opinions and observations. Your comment will officially be deleted after this....
oh, and why should it matter that its the end of the year. school is school and work is work. shit Im tired too, but I come to school professional everyday, I think you need to learn to do the same!
ok, im done....
wait, i just realized that you might actually tryna be insult my intelligence "its hard to figure out we r tired in the fucking end of the fuckkin year"....NO its not hard to figure this out if that WERE the case with everyone. It must be HARD for YOU to figure out then that not everyone is tired, and that some of you are just lazy ass students. Dont ever try to insinuate that I might not know what the hell im talking.I think you must fall into this category of lazy ass tudents since you feel so strongly about the topic you had to write this comment about it.
ok, that comment made me mad, but ima let it go....this right here, surpasses Foolishness altogether. this right here is what we call bitchassness at its best! (hey P. Diddy)
(insert stank ass look with a neck roll here)....NOW, Im done
Thursday, May 21, 2009
School is for what now? (insert confused look)
I am just so ticked off that these damn students think they can come to school and chillax. Like I come to work to stand in front of the class and watch you sleep or chit chat. So being the inquisitive person that I am, I decided to get to the bottom of this foolishness (wow, havent used that in like forever).
I was on a quest. Operation who the hell do you think you are, if you will. I had the 9G first period. I came in ready to discuss just what the hell they think is suppoed to be going in during school hours and what their role as a student was. I was surprised with the responses to be honest.
Half the students were in class anyway, so the convo flowed pretty well. I asked what is school for and why are they here. And most of them replied that they are here to sleep and do what they want (how sad is it that I actually believe that they believe this). in their other classes they play cards, chew gum, talk, sleep, play on their phones etc. They said they didnt HAVE to do work and a lot of them dont. When asked what the repercussions of this was, they said nothing. The teachers yell at them and tell them to stop, but they continue anyway. One kid (damn smartass) actually tld me that I can sleep in class if I wanted to. I wanted to laugh so hard cuz it was just the funniest thing.
Not too farfetched tho. Mon and Tues I didnt have work and that only left Wed and Thurs. But many people were absent and/or preparing for the celebration so a lot of students were absent. Throw in the heat, regular 'i dont want to work' attitude of most of the students and the fact that not one student came with their textbooks, I decided to have free time in the classes for the 2 days. So yest. I was so damn bored in my own class I actually nodded off. There were like 5 girls in the class who didnt want to play any games or talk to me, so I just put my head down and did my thing......hahahahah im so horrible!
Its funny cuz Ive noticed that if I give the students free time, they dont do shit. I mean absolutely nothing. If I were them Id be bored as hell and might actually be compelled to ask for something to do.
So anyway, I also asked the students if anyone had a favorite subject. Of the 3 people who said yes, they answered gym and the other said geography. How sad is this?!?! One guy said that when I was in school he knows that I didnt like it. Quite the contrary.
I wasnt IN LOVE with school. I never woke up and said damn, cant wait to get there. But I also didnt come to school to play cards and talk shit all day. I had my days where I hated school and disliked teachers. But I liked getting good grades. I loved it actually. I like Japanese class. I like math up to a certain point. I like playing volleyball and basketball aftershcool. And if I didnt understand something, I actually went to tutoring or asked questions. I cared about school. It was my life. These kids, boy o boy. They just dont give a fuck! About anything. I really wonder what they expect to be in life. Seriously....I can picture a few bus drivers, cashiers, and vagabonds...VIVIDLY!!!
In the 10 class we had a similar convo, but it was a lil diff. Ill have to blog about that another time tho.
Well kids, hope you learned something today.....cuz my kids in school sure didnt!
I was on a quest. Operation who the hell do you think you are, if you will. I had the 9G first period. I came in ready to discuss just what the hell they think is suppoed to be going in during school hours and what their role as a student was. I was surprised with the responses to be honest.
Half the students were in class anyway, so the convo flowed pretty well. I asked what is school for and why are they here. And most of them replied that they are here to sleep and do what they want (how sad is it that I actually believe that they believe this). in their other classes they play cards, chew gum, talk, sleep, play on their phones etc. They said they didnt HAVE to do work and a lot of them dont. When asked what the repercussions of this was, they said nothing. The teachers yell at them and tell them to stop, but they continue anyway. One kid (damn smartass) actually tld me that I can sleep in class if I wanted to. I wanted to laugh so hard cuz it was just the funniest thing.
Not too farfetched tho. Mon and Tues I didnt have work and that only left Wed and Thurs. But many people were absent and/or preparing for the celebration so a lot of students were absent. Throw in the heat, regular 'i dont want to work' attitude of most of the students and the fact that not one student came with their textbooks, I decided to have free time in the classes for the 2 days. So yest. I was so damn bored in my own class I actually nodded off. There were like 5 girls in the class who didnt want to play any games or talk to me, so I just put my head down and did my thing......hahahahah im so horrible!
Its funny cuz Ive noticed that if I give the students free time, they dont do shit. I mean absolutely nothing. If I were them Id be bored as hell and might actually be compelled to ask for something to do.
So anyway, I also asked the students if anyone had a favorite subject. Of the 3 people who said yes, they answered gym and the other said geography. How sad is this?!?! One guy said that when I was in school he knows that I didnt like it. Quite the contrary.
I wasnt IN LOVE with school. I never woke up and said damn, cant wait to get there. But I also didnt come to school to play cards and talk shit all day. I had my days where I hated school and disliked teachers. But I liked getting good grades. I loved it actually. I like Japanese class. I like math up to a certain point. I like playing volleyball and basketball aftershcool. And if I didnt understand something, I actually went to tutoring or asked questions. I cared about school. It was my life. These kids, boy o boy. They just dont give a fuck! About anything. I really wonder what they expect to be in life. Seriously....I can picture a few bus drivers, cashiers, and vagabonds...VIVIDLY!!!
In the 10 class we had a similar convo, but it was a lil diff. Ill have to blog about that another time tho.
Well kids, hope you learned something today.....cuz my kids in school sure didnt!
What a day....
Well, Ill start off by saying that Ive gone through almost all emotions known to man today. I am an emotional creature and today was just ridiculous.....
So I met with Rumi so we could work on my video for the school celebration. I really didnt want to do anything esp. since the students were adamant on NOT doing anything for the celebration. I decided to just do my own thing and come in on my day off (yeah, i know) and make the video. My school is named after a famous bulgarian who created the first textbook, known as the riben bukvar (or fish book cuz it had a pic of a dolphin on the cover). So I wanted to do a small documentary to see if people in the school (students and teachers) actually knew anything about him. Well it went pretty well and of course I got a few laughs out the video cuz some people knew absolutely nothing about this guy. I had to come in today to see if I could take the video somewhere to get it edited. My sidekick (Rumi) was on my heels as we bounced from place to place asking if such a thing could be done. But this is Pernik, and what the hell was I thinking.....NO, it couldnt be done.
I was bummed. The vid was 11 min. but it was supposed to be like 5. Well I decided to try and put it on the computer cuz there was a video editing program on the school's laptop. Wouldnt you know that after I played with the damn thing not only could I NOT get the vid from the minidisc to the computer, I managed to ERASE the vid comepletely. What a braniac......
At this point Im bawlin like a newborn. I was worried that the director would think ill of me cuz I said I was gonna make a vid and I couldnt produce anything. AND the reherasal for the show was today and I was supposed to show the vid to the other colleagues. AND I was upset for how stupid I was and how all my work was gone in theblink of an eye. Of course my sidekick and the other Bulgarians were like dont worry shani, it will all work out, but I was just so damn distraught (this is when I smoked the cig).
Well the asst director comes in to the office to talk to me and she works out this master plan to shoot another vid and have it delivered to the rehearsal. Boy was I relieved. It actually DID all work out. I was pretty much smilin the whole day. Wait Ill retract that. I was pretty much smilin til 1st period began.......
So I met with Rumi so we could work on my video for the school celebration. I really didnt want to do anything esp. since the students were adamant on NOT doing anything for the celebration. I decided to just do my own thing and come in on my day off (yeah, i know) and make the video. My school is named after a famous bulgarian who created the first textbook, known as the riben bukvar (or fish book cuz it had a pic of a dolphin on the cover). So I wanted to do a small documentary to see if people in the school (students and teachers) actually knew anything about him. Well it went pretty well and of course I got a few laughs out the video cuz some people knew absolutely nothing about this guy. I had to come in today to see if I could take the video somewhere to get it edited. My sidekick (Rumi) was on my heels as we bounced from place to place asking if such a thing could be done. But this is Pernik, and what the hell was I thinking.....NO, it couldnt be done.
I was bummed. The vid was 11 min. but it was supposed to be like 5. Well I decided to try and put it on the computer cuz there was a video editing program on the school's laptop. Wouldnt you know that after I played with the damn thing not only could I NOT get the vid from the minidisc to the computer, I managed to ERASE the vid comepletely. What a braniac......
At this point Im bawlin like a newborn. I was worried that the director would think ill of me cuz I said I was gonna make a vid and I couldnt produce anything. AND the reherasal for the show was today and I was supposed to show the vid to the other colleagues. AND I was upset for how stupid I was and how all my work was gone in theblink of an eye. Of course my sidekick and the other Bulgarians were like dont worry shani, it will all work out, but I was just so damn distraught (this is when I smoked the cig).
Well the asst director comes in to the office to talk to me and she works out this master plan to shoot another vid and have it delivered to the rehearsal. Boy was I relieved. It actually DID all work out. I was pretty much smilin the whole day. Wait Ill retract that. I was pretty much smilin til 1st period began.......
Ode to emilia, viktor, and adelina
Just when I thought all hope was lost for some glint of happiness or even satisfaction doing my job, my last class proved to be well, ill just say a surprise. My day was pretty turbulent (ill blog about it in a sec) and this was the last class of the day, so I was just expecting to get through it alive.
I walk in. the lights are off. Folks are playing cards and listening to music. Some girl who I marked absent from the class just before walks out of the room. I sit down at the desk. Take attendance. Slowly announce to the class that we are having a free period.
But as im doing so, I notice the strangest thing. 2 girls sitting in the front of the room actually looked kinda sad/disappointed. Amongst the yelps of yes, ur the best teacher, and yay, I managed to ask what the problem was. I said if you dont want free time, we can have class. The girls immediately shook their heads yes and I was for a moment UTTERLY confused.
I said I was under the impression the class LOVED when we didnt do work in class. You all act so bored and depressed during class that I thought this would be something you wanted. If you want to have class, we can have class. Who wants to have class today. And wouldnt you know that darndest thing happened: among the FEW students who were listening to me, 3 people raised their hands and said they wanted to have class. The 2 girls looked like bobble heads they were so excited and both said simultaneously, we want to learn.
This honestly made my day. I almost felt bad cuz I DIDNT have anything planned to do with them. I assured the class (well maybe just those 3) that until the end of school, I will come prepared with a lesson every time we have class. Im extra extra excited!
I walk in. the lights are off. Folks are playing cards and listening to music. Some girl who I marked absent from the class just before walks out of the room. I sit down at the desk. Take attendance. Slowly announce to the class that we are having a free period.
But as im doing so, I notice the strangest thing. 2 girls sitting in the front of the room actually looked kinda sad/disappointed. Amongst the yelps of yes, ur the best teacher, and yay, I managed to ask what the problem was. I said if you dont want free time, we can have class. The girls immediately shook their heads yes and I was for a moment UTTERLY confused.
I said I was under the impression the class LOVED when we didnt do work in class. You all act so bored and depressed during class that I thought this would be something you wanted. If you want to have class, we can have class. Who wants to have class today. And wouldnt you know that darndest thing happened: among the FEW students who were listening to me, 3 people raised their hands and said they wanted to have class. The 2 girls looked like bobble heads they were so excited and both said simultaneously, we want to learn.
This honestly made my day. I almost felt bad cuz I DIDNT have anything planned to do with them. I assured the class (well maybe just those 3) that until the end of school, I will come prepared with a lesson every time we have class. Im extra extra excited!
Its come to this
So damn stressed out, I just smoked a cigarette. 3 puffs in, I started feelin queezy and stopped.
Now I feel sick, AND im still stressed~
Now I feel sick, AND im still stressed~
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Allergies
this is exactly why I dont fuck with nature. My nose has been sneezing not stop, snot drippin everywhere, and my eyes have been watery and itching.
Damnit!
Damnit!
Strapless Bra Please
The "prom" is almost here, adn Im extra excited. I got this cute purple strapless mini dress that is just uber adorable. It oozes "look at me" Ive been tryin to prepare myself for the ball for the past few weeks, but I still hadnt got a strapless bra. I didnt know any good places to go, so I asked some of the ladies at my school if they could help me. They were excited and we were on the hunt after a while.
We went to one place and let me just say how awkward it was at first. I didnt know my BG bra size so I had to do a lil trial and error moves before we figured that out. Then I had to come out of the dreesing room with just a bra to get their opinion on how it fit. But after a while it wasnt so bad. We got a few laughs out of the whole thing.
The first place didnt have anything that fit, so I went to another store. It had a really nice bra that fit me well, made my boobs look spectacular, and looked nice with the dress (I brought the dress with me to try the bras on with it to be sure I looked good). I looked at the price tag, uumm they wanted 70 leva for the damn bra. It was a plain black bra with like 3 rhinestones on it, and they wanted 70 leva for it.
i obviously wasnt going for that BS, so we went to another place where I found a nice bra for 5 leva. hahahahaha
Im gonna be the bell of the ball, cuz thats how I do!
We went to one place and let me just say how awkward it was at first. I didnt know my BG bra size so I had to do a lil trial and error moves before we figured that out. Then I had to come out of the dreesing room with just a bra to get their opinion on how it fit. But after a while it wasnt so bad. We got a few laughs out of the whole thing.
The first place didnt have anything that fit, so I went to another store. It had a really nice bra that fit me well, made my boobs look spectacular, and looked nice with the dress (I brought the dress with me to try the bras on with it to be sure I looked good). I looked at the price tag, uumm they wanted 70 leva for the damn bra. It was a plain black bra with like 3 rhinestones on it, and they wanted 70 leva for it.
i obviously wasnt going for that BS, so we went to another place where I found a nice bra for 5 leva. hahahahaha
Im gonna be the bell of the ball, cuz thats how I do!
Laguna Beach
There was a LB marathon on Sun, and that made me extremely happy! Ive been wacthing the past episodes on MTV for a while now. I finally finished the original season, with LC and have moved on to the next season (I guess) There are som new kids on there and while the show is still entertaining, Im so confused sometimes. Mainly with the fact that they use the term "hookin up" and I cant for he life of me figure out what they mean.
Os if anyone knows, then you should share with me cuz Im totally clueless. Ive heard the term used before and honestly a lot of white people use it. I also thought it meant having sex with someone. But now Im not so sure. I cant believe that all these LB high-schoolers would be using the term to mean they had sex with someone, cuz they'd all be sluts. But if it doesnt mean sex, then what is it? Just kissing, a lil hand action, nipple massages, mild-heavy petting/humping....
Im so confused.........
Os if anyone knows, then you should share with me cuz Im totally clueless. Ive heard the term used before and honestly a lot of white people use it. I also thought it meant having sex with someone. But now Im not so sure. I cant believe that all these LB high-schoolers would be using the term to mean they had sex with someone, cuz they'd all be sluts. But if it doesnt mean sex, then what is it? Just kissing, a lil hand action, nipple massages, mild-heavy petting/humping....
Im so confused.........
Friday, May 15, 2009
What are you passionate about?
This question kinda popped up unexpectedly and I figured Id put it into the atmosphere.....
I guess the only thing I am passionate about is traveling and being free to do what I want. I really love fashion and writing (Ive thought about writing several books) but those are not really passions of mine. If only I could get paid to travel. I used to love watching the Travel and Living channel (until they took that network off my cable). There were several shows where the host would travel to different countries, eating delicacies and taking in the historical/beautiful sights of the place. I could do that!!!! That could be me!!! I could travel to those exotic places and eat delicious foods (cuz thats a passion of mine too). I could be funny and appear stunning in front of the camera. That would be my dream job!
Back to reality......
What the hell am I gonna do when I get home? Another retarded question that I dont really wanna think about. Ive never been a "plan for the future" kind of person. ButI suppose that saying is true, those who fail to plan, plan to fail......
Why cant America be communist?..... ok BADDDDD joke.....
Oh what to do with my life......
What are YOU passionate about?
I guess the only thing I am passionate about is traveling and being free to do what I want. I really love fashion and writing (Ive thought about writing several books) but those are not really passions of mine. If only I could get paid to travel. I used to love watching the Travel and Living channel (until they took that network off my cable). There were several shows where the host would travel to different countries, eating delicacies and taking in the historical/beautiful sights of the place. I could do that!!!! That could be me!!! I could travel to those exotic places and eat delicious foods (cuz thats a passion of mine too). I could be funny and appear stunning in front of the camera. That would be my dream job!
Back to reality......
What the hell am I gonna do when I get home? Another retarded question that I dont really wanna think about. Ive never been a "plan for the future" kind of person. ButI suppose that saying is true, those who fail to plan, plan to fail......
Why cant America be communist?..... ok BADDDDD joke.....
Oh what to do with my life......
What are YOU passionate about?
My night
So yeah, black outs occurring at any point in time...gettin a lil ridiculous! I just got finished making this delicious salad which I put in the fridge to chill. It was a nice lil seafood salad and I was salivating/drooling just thinking about eating it. I go into the room to watch TV and BAM, the light goes out.
Complete darkness....
Im thinkin this is one of those usual occurrances when it will just come back on in a few minutes. I just need to wait it out. Wait it out turned into a damn hour of pacing back and forth with a damn flashlight, terrified that a spider or bug of some sort was gonna attack me. I started to fiddle with the fuse box thing and the piece was so damn hot you could fry an omelette on it. I unscrewed one part of it in hopes that if I helped it cool down, I could just screw it back in and the lights would come back on. Uummm NO GO.
I lit some candles and sat at the kitchen table with my salad. Devoured it in under 3 minutes. Now what to do......
I just went to sleep, at an astonishing 10 PM! I thought when I woke up I would have light. Uuummm NO GO AGAIN. I woke up at the butt crack of dawn (well about 7:30) and still no damn light. I had to walk all the way to my school, unshowered and dirty mind you, to find the maintenance guy to come assist me. The problem was fixed in under 5 minutes, at which time I chatted it up with Poppa. I kept wondering what the hell he did that I couldnt do to fix the damn thing.
What to do for the weekend? Clubbin anyone......
Complete darkness....
Im thinkin this is one of those usual occurrances when it will just come back on in a few minutes. I just need to wait it out. Wait it out turned into a damn hour of pacing back and forth with a damn flashlight, terrified that a spider or bug of some sort was gonna attack me. I started to fiddle with the fuse box thing and the piece was so damn hot you could fry an omelette on it. I unscrewed one part of it in hopes that if I helped it cool down, I could just screw it back in and the lights would come back on. Uummm NO GO.
I lit some candles and sat at the kitchen table with my salad. Devoured it in under 3 minutes. Now what to do......
I just went to sleep, at an astonishing 10 PM! I thought when I woke up I would have light. Uuummm NO GO AGAIN. I woke up at the butt crack of dawn (well about 7:30) and still no damn light. I had to walk all the way to my school, unshowered and dirty mind you, to find the maintenance guy to come assist me. The problem was fixed in under 5 minutes, at which time I chatted it up with Poppa. I kept wondering what the hell he did that I couldnt do to fix the damn thing.
What to do for the weekend? Clubbin anyone......
Thursday, May 14, 2009
At least I look cute tho
Today I got on some skinny jeans, pumps, t-shirt and blazer. I kinda got a rocker look goin on. And thats about the only thing that I look forward to when I wake up: Gettin dressed! Matchin clothes and putting on shoes that I know will get me compliments and stares. When I first got here I wore pants all the time and button up shirts. Now I chagne up my style from time to time and I think a lot of people are surprised cuz they mostly wear the same thing almost everyday. I have so many clothes in my closet ts ridiculous.
Oh Eddie and I were talkin yest and we BRIEFLY touched on the subject of deodorant. And I basically think it might as well not be sold cuz folks dont seem to wear it at all. There were plenty of times when I was on the bus or soemone and I swear the most fowlest odor overtook my nose. I remember distinctly questioning if I was the only one who smelled it and where/who it was coming from. I mean damn cant people smell an odor coming off them? Dont they know that they smell bad?
I just wonder....
Oh Eddie and I were talkin yest and we BRIEFLY touched on the subject of deodorant. And I basically think it might as well not be sold cuz folks dont seem to wear it at all. There were plenty of times when I was on the bus or soemone and I swear the most fowlest odor overtook my nose. I remember distinctly questioning if I was the only one who smelled it and where/who it was coming from. I mean damn cant people smell an odor coming off them? Dont they know that they smell bad?
I just wonder....
I feel the same
I just read Leah's blog and it kinda hit close to home. Writing about things that you have redundantly written of already and reopening new wounds. Finding different words to express the exact same sentiments you have felt, thought of then blogged about. All to say the same damn thing: You hate teaching here!
This was me yesterday. The weather is gettin really nice out and I see the students' attendance already waning. I havent decided if thats a good thing or not, since the students who do still come, still dont do any work. hahahaha
Yesterday I attempted to introduce Shakespeare (S.) to the class. In the textbook we were suppose to go over love, so I figured we could go over a diff text then was presented in the book. I decided on Shakespeare cuz they are somewhat familiar with the story and I htought it might be fun to actually act out some of the lines. Uuumm NO. I get to my first class and a good deal of the students are missing. We go over a scene from S. and it was quite tragic. The students looked bored out of their minds and no one wanted to act out the scene. I finally decided to beg and one girl read Juliets part while I was Romeo.
The next class wasnt too much better. There were a lot more boys so I was convinced that they would want to read some lines. Uumm NO AGAIN. One chick had the nerve to say in BG after I asked if anyone wanted to read some lines in front of the class "whats the point?" Ill admit that I got kinda upset. I worked on what we would do in class all morning, looked up words, and had to print copies of S. for everyone. It costs me upwards of 5 leva to print copies and they kinda just sat there uninterested. I cant say that I was really surprised, and I dont know why this still makes me upset. But I walked out of class feeling defeated again cuz the students are just so uninterested in EVERYTHING. I suppose it doesnt really matter what I do in class and I should stop tryin to make thigns fun for them if they obvioulsy arent responding.
Moving on to my next class where the students were blatantly talking and laughing while work was on the board. I got so angry and started barkin on them. I simply said if you dont want to do work or be in this class you can leave. I will mark you present and you can go. I cant stand standing in front of a class tryin to teach while students pretend you arent even there. Its so disrespectful and makes me feel stupid.
I am so glad the school year is almost over. Im seriously countin down days at this point. I really think it so sad it has to be like this. I always think of students in other places who might actually be excited about learning english, or who really want to go to school and learn. Then I think about how lazy a lot of these kids are and how entitled they must feel to be bold enough to come to school everyday and pick and choose when they want to listen/pay attention.
For a summer project im not dare workin with ANY of the students in this school. I will not waste my time gettin up, copyin materials, walkin from my apt to the school to find that NO ONE is there or worse only 2 students showed up and all the activities Ive planned need at least like 10.
Am I making a mistake? Am I really wasting my time here? Am I just staying because I dont want to go back home?Cuz surely Ive tried puttin in 110% with nothing reciprocated.
What the hell am I doing here?
This was me yesterday. The weather is gettin really nice out and I see the students' attendance already waning. I havent decided if thats a good thing or not, since the students who do still come, still dont do any work. hahahaha
Yesterday I attempted to introduce Shakespeare (S.) to the class. In the textbook we were suppose to go over love, so I figured we could go over a diff text then was presented in the book. I decided on Shakespeare cuz they are somewhat familiar with the story and I htought it might be fun to actually act out some of the lines. Uuumm NO. I get to my first class and a good deal of the students are missing. We go over a scene from S. and it was quite tragic. The students looked bored out of their minds and no one wanted to act out the scene. I finally decided to beg and one girl read Juliets part while I was Romeo.
The next class wasnt too much better. There were a lot more boys so I was convinced that they would want to read some lines. Uumm NO AGAIN. One chick had the nerve to say in BG after I asked if anyone wanted to read some lines in front of the class "whats the point?" Ill admit that I got kinda upset. I worked on what we would do in class all morning, looked up words, and had to print copies of S. for everyone. It costs me upwards of 5 leva to print copies and they kinda just sat there uninterested. I cant say that I was really surprised, and I dont know why this still makes me upset. But I walked out of class feeling defeated again cuz the students are just so uninterested in EVERYTHING. I suppose it doesnt really matter what I do in class and I should stop tryin to make thigns fun for them if they obvioulsy arent responding.
Moving on to my next class where the students were blatantly talking and laughing while work was on the board. I got so angry and started barkin on them. I simply said if you dont want to do work or be in this class you can leave. I will mark you present and you can go. I cant stand standing in front of a class tryin to teach while students pretend you arent even there. Its so disrespectful and makes me feel stupid.
I am so glad the school year is almost over. Im seriously countin down days at this point. I really think it so sad it has to be like this. I always think of students in other places who might actually be excited about learning english, or who really want to go to school and learn. Then I think about how lazy a lot of these kids are and how entitled they must feel to be bold enough to come to school everyday and pick and choose when they want to listen/pay attention.
For a summer project im not dare workin with ANY of the students in this school. I will not waste my time gettin up, copyin materials, walkin from my apt to the school to find that NO ONE is there or worse only 2 students showed up and all the activities Ive planned need at least like 10.
Am I making a mistake? Am I really wasting my time here? Am I just staying because I dont want to go back home?Cuz surely Ive tried puttin in 110% with nothing reciprocated.
What the hell am I doing here?
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Rihanna Nude Pics
As if she isnt surrounded by enough controversy, some nude pics of Rihanna have flooded the internet. The nude pics dont necessarily show her face, just a body. So one could argue that in fact its not her. But folks are sayin these pics are her. And because I love to keep my loyal supporters/readers up on the latest, Ive took the liberty to post the link where you can see a slideshow of the pics in question.
http://www.worldstarhiphop.com/videos/player4.swf?autoplay=0&tinyimg=http://api.ning.com/files/sehTXWcpNaHCt7kkDJhr8kvrtkRXVy3cHYjFondwe6jCK5jGYr8*1L3ez9x*tIPt*2opEitj2B23WTI1O6ftKtLTi8xcUCuk/6.jpg&Addr=http://www.worldstarhiphop.com/videos&v=playFLV.php?loc=http://api.ning.com/files/sehTXWcpNaHVTZvT9j0zjkGwnzP0sRd1f7qfpNkotvE7ZP9k2KpbmnHBaAPgRO8g21*Nn81fYCEsn22*X7GES23dC0jtCvIH/tmp110052.flv&play=1&vCode=q3407mZHZrM63Bi4&enctrch=&vl=wshh4iB36MrZHZm7043q&ens=2&vid=15971
The first pic is obviously here actually....oh hey Chris Breezy, is that you?!?!
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The first pic is obviously here actually....oh hey Chris Breezy, is that you?!?!
Nick Cannon vs. Eminem
Well lookey here....Apparently Em's new album has a diss track called "Bagpipes from Bahgdad" in which he makes fun of Mariah Carey. He called her a cunt, whore and suggests that they had something goin on a while back. Nick Cannon has *blogged* (how funny) a response in which he slams Em for being a racist, whack rapper, and pathetic. My thoughts:
1. EM, if Mariah is a cunt, whore, and so on, why would you want to get with her. In the song you claim "you want her back" meaning you had her at some point. But if she is all these negative things, then why even want her back
2. Nick, really?!? you responded to this crap in your blog. Um how old are we? Blogs are takin over the world.....Next its gonna be "You gonna be home tonight? Nah Im goin out, but hit me on my blog and we'll see if we can meet up....."
3. Can we say PUBLICITY...I just read an article where the writer makes a very good point. This is all publicity. Em needs to seel records in this damn ailin economy and we all know controversy sells records
4. Really, I could give 2 shits, cuz Im not buyin his damn album. But the title of the track is hilarious....
Oh wait, in a fight , who would win?
1. EM, if Mariah is a cunt, whore, and so on, why would you want to get with her. In the song you claim "you want her back" meaning you had her at some point. But if she is all these negative things, then why even want her back
2. Nick, really?!? you responded to this crap in your blog. Um how old are we? Blogs are takin over the world.....Next its gonna be "You gonna be home tonight? Nah Im goin out, but hit me on my blog and we'll see if we can meet up....."
3. Can we say PUBLICITY...I just read an article where the writer makes a very good point. This is all publicity. Em needs to seel records in this damn ailin economy and we all know controversy sells records
4. Really, I could give 2 shits, cuz Im not buyin his damn album. But the title of the track is hilarious....
Oh wait, in a fight , who would win?
Just stop it
Yeah um this "swag" thing needs to stop ASAP. Its in like EVERY damn song I hear. I JUST heard that Boom Boom Pow song by the Black Eyed Peas and Fergie says "them chickens jackin my style they try to copy my swagga im on that next shit now" Uumm really?!?! Fergie please stop it. Aint damn near nobody tryna copy ur style, swagga or anything else. And frankly, jackin and swagga is so overrated and overused its ridiculous
please stop the madness.....
please stop the madness.....
She likes me, she likes me not....
Uumm, how do you know that someone doesnt like you? Weird question huh? I thought myself, but Ive been wondering that for a while now about my Director (principal). The volunteer that was here before me was some dude named Lincoln. He was was of those super volunteers in the eyes of the students and faculty. He got the school those dry erase boards, and got a loud speaker system installed in the school. He had a BG girlfriend whom he has since married, which of course makes him EXTRA SUPER!
With that being said, when I first first first came to the school, the director mentioned that I was not what she was expecting, but I was really cute so she was happy I was here. She is a woman of not many words, and I honestly dont see her often, but when I do, its often extremely awkard, and ALWAYS left wondering if she even likes me.
When we see each other:
-she never speaks first. One time I was walkin down the hall and saw her. Mind you, its just me and her walkin down the hall, so I know she saw me. Had I not said anything, she would have kept walkin, exeplified in the fact that she was almost behind me when I said something to her.
-When my nervousness doesnt get thebest of me and I manage to articulate a hello or good afternoon in BG, she just nods
-I have encountered several odd looks from her
-I tense up and sense a very cold feeling come over me. I was talkin to a colleague and she walks in. I completely stop speakin (and damn near breathing for that matter). She says her lil bit then walks out the room. I might as well had been invisible
So I ask again, does she like me or not?
With that being said, when I first first first came to the school, the director mentioned that I was not what she was expecting, but I was really cute so she was happy I was here. She is a woman of not many words, and I honestly dont see her often, but when I do, its often extremely awkard, and ALWAYS left wondering if she even likes me.
When we see each other:
-she never speaks first. One time I was walkin down the hall and saw her. Mind you, its just me and her walkin down the hall, so I know she saw me. Had I not said anything, she would have kept walkin, exeplified in the fact that she was almost behind me when I said something to her.
-When my nervousness doesnt get thebest of me and I manage to articulate a hello or good afternoon in BG, she just nods
-I have encountered several odd looks from her
-I tense up and sense a very cold feeling come over me. I was talkin to a colleague and she walks in. I completely stop speakin (and damn near breathing for that matter). She says her lil bit then walks out the room. I might as well had been invisible
So I ask again, does she like me or not?
Models and Boxers
So to pass the time, you already know that im planted in front of the tv. Im hopin to sprout another arm actually so I can operate the remote, drink juice, and snack on sunflower seeds *Yeah, im THAT lazy* I usually stay up late some days cuz I have to work late the next day. Ive begun to watch boxing on tv. Surprisingly, its not as barbaric and stupid as I originally thought. The fighters really have to have strategy, agility, strength and other traits to ensure victory. Its become quite exciting for me. But the thing I love the most about Boxing, is those sexy ass bodies!!!!! Damn if those dudes dont look delicious and scrumptious at the same time! They all sweaty, with big muscles. Um, just sexy.....And while Im talkin bout sexy, child let me tell you about this model I saw the other day on tv.....
I was watchin some old clips of different fashion shows. This old Dolce and Gabbana show popped up and the models didnt have any shirts on. This one dude was lookin RIGHT. I mean his chest was amazing, he face was gorgeous, and he just exuded sexy. His "v-cut" was ridiculous too. He was so cut and chiseled. I was damn near droolin....Un, im bout to start droolin just thinkin of him.....
Oh hey Poppa....and dont be gettin all out of pocket, cuz yo ass be droolin over that Kardashian chick, so stop it!
I was watchin some old clips of different fashion shows. This old Dolce and Gabbana show popped up and the models didnt have any shirts on. This one dude was lookin RIGHT. I mean his chest was amazing, he face was gorgeous, and he just exuded sexy. His "v-cut" was ridiculous too. He was so cut and chiseled. I was damn near droolin....Un, im bout to start droolin just thinkin of him.....
Oh hey Poppa....and dont be gettin all out of pocket, cuz yo ass be droolin over that Kardashian chick, so stop it!
Out of Hiding
Its been a hot minute since I been clubbin in Sofia. We just came off a break, and I actually stayed home the whole break. I decided to come out of hiding and show my lovely face to the world in this cute lil number. I didnt want to overwhelm folk with a tight dress get-up, so I opted for some skinny jeans, and this cute lil top. I was poppin tags with the whole outfit (just thought you should know) and I had to complete the look with a black 3/4 sleeve jacket and my pumps. Red toes and a red clutch completed the look. *I know you wish you were me*
Food Shopping
So I really had to step back and reevaluate what the hell was going on. I hate walkin all the way to the supermarket, then walkin all the way back home with bags. I also hate goin to the supermarket cuz everyone stares at me. which makes me uncomfortable. I hate buyin food in bulk cuz it spoils and I have to throw it away. I say all this to kinda explain why my fridge looks like this.
I finally had to look at my *thinning* self in the mirror and for the sake of my health, I decided to go to the damn supermarket and buy some food. Cuz lets just be honest, I cant eat Ranch dressing, jelly, mustard, butter and drink water for the rest of my time here *together or separately* hahahahahahaha
I have since indeed bought food to put in the fridge. Please dont worry about me.....lol
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