dUDE wHERE'S mY cAR?

Um, so as you all may know, I have NO iphone. Its sucks for sure....and as you all know, since I live in NY, I don't have a car, cuz I use public transportation. But even that is gettin on my nerves, and I think it might be time to invest in a car.....

I take the train mostly everywhere these days. Its fast, convenient and altho cuz its the summer its usually hot as all hell while waiting for the train, I suppose its not THAT bad. Well since I dont have my iphone now, when Im on the train, I have nothing else better to do than to look at all the other people, and what they are doing...or wearing. And it dawned on me the other day....Most of the people taking public transportation were HIDEOUS!!!!!

I mean Im sorry to say this (but not really) but they were all BUTT UGLY...ok the majority of them. I really just couldnt help but notice how the people on the train jsut looked so out of place. They were raggedy, and dirty, and a lot of them looked like they had just been rolling around in dirt. I started to think that maybe I was the one who was out of place.

There was no eye candy at all either. Not that Im lookin for anyone (hey Poppa), but there were no good lookin dudes on the trains anywhere. No one with bulging muscles to drool over, no one to look at period. The ladies on the train looked all beat up and nasty too. And I mean this wasnt just one train, its like ALL of them!

I was waiting in the station the other night for like 20 minutes for the 5 train. It was kinda late, and it was hot as hell. I could feel the sweat dripping down my legs and thights and chest area. Well anyway, with nothing else to do but wait on the train, I planted myself near the stairs and jsut watched as the people filed in from above, and joined the others people like myself impatiently waiting for the train. A guy with a dirty shirt on with flip-flops...a lady with a messed up weave....teenagers with their pants hanging off their asses so I could see their stained underwear.....it was just ridiculous....

so in the words of whoever said that famous quote.....Dude, where's my car?!?!

And it gets worse....

Today was such a horrible day, and the funny part is, it aint even over!

Woke up on the wrong side of the bed with cramps. Nothin to eat. It was so hot, and no one has called/emailed me about a damn job. And of course, my iPhone is GONE with the wind. For soem odd reason I had some hope left. Initially it kept going to voice mail when I called the number, but then it rang. I got my hopes up but no one picked up. After calling about 20 times I decided to give it up......

My mom called me sometime last night to tell me that my lil sis strolled in the house around 1:30 AM, altho her curfew is at 11:30. Her excuse: her phone was dead and she didnt know what time it was. How convenient! I was so angry. Lately I feel like she is kinda developing a bad attitude. She doesnt do any chores at home, talks back to my mom all the time, amd most importantly, started fucking up in school. I set very high standards for my lil sis, but she just doesnt see that Im trying to get her to do better. She thinks becuz she just turned 16 she can do what she wants cuz she is grown. Ha, she got another thing comin....So anyway, I had to come to the house today and smack fire out this lil girl. I told her ass to stop talkin back, jsut listen to what I gotta say and keep it moving. So this lil chicken shit had the nerve to say something to me so I smacker her ass. She stepped back and then started crying. I just went off on her ass. Im so tired of her actin up.....

Then I went to the AT&T store to get a new sim card for my phone. I spoke to a representative the day I lost the phone and he said I could get a FREE sim card, and wait 2 weeks to buy a new iPhone for about $200. Low and behold, this fucker LIED about EVERYTHING. The sim card was $25 (which I called to customer service to take care....the customer is always right!) and even if I wait, I still have to pay full price for an iPhone, the cheapest being $499. I was so fuckin digusting you know I was in the store crying. Its so unfair, and Apple think they so slick not having insurance in the iPhone. Bitch asses.......

Oh and did I mention its raining and hot.....

I just need to sit the fuck down somewhere and get a drink!

Terrible....Tuesdays

Well not really so terrible. I just like the way that sounded.....lol

So nothin much new goin on. Ive officially sank to an all new low. I managed to be on the comp for several hours yesterday, bouncing back and forth between youtube/ybf.com/facebook/and gmail. Im such a loser.....

Class....uuhhh yest and today went by pretty smoothly. I looked at my calender and damn near had a heart attack thinkin that we had another full week of work after this one. But then I wised up and realized work is officially over next tuesday. Ive been thinkin lately how much it must suck for the other teachers. The younger kids (I believe up to 7g) got out of school June 15th. They for some retarded reason got out before the older kids, while the rest of us are all doomed til the 30th. But here is the kicker: those teachers still have to come to work from 9-2. And all they do is check in, sit around for a bit, then holla at the cafe. That sucks ass......

Most days Im done pretty early. And after work is over, im ghost. I no longer wish to sit and chit chat with folks that #1 I cant understand half the time and #2 who barely even talk to me. I usually kinda awkardly sit at the table and drink my juice extra quick, for lack of anything else to do. The occassional head nod, or da here and there is obligatory. But im over it. Aint no point in fakin the funk.....

So Im home now. Just finished takin a nap. Nothin on TV, and my headphones were makin my ears ache so I just took a nap.

Oh, so I have like no food in my fridge...AGAIN. Ive been living on raamen noodles, eggs and waffles. So lets talk about how two weeks into JUNE, my monthly allowance was completey DEPLETED. I had to pay for my trip to Greece, but since I squandered May's monthly allowance, I had to take that money out of June's money. Then I had to pretend to be a volunteer who cared, and did a sessionon diversity for the new volunteers which set me back a whole bunch of money. Taxi fares, travel expenses. At that point, around like June 9th, I had like 120 leva in my account. Lol....Where did THAT money go....uuhhh thats all kinda fuzzy at this point......

Dippin into my amer bank account is nothin new to me. I usually only do it to buy clothes tho. But I need to do it this time to eat! Oh my frivolous nature will be the death of me im sure.....

On another note, what the hell is up with the weather? It rained yesterday, and it was so cold this mornin on my way to work. Its supposed to be chilly for the rest of the week. I remember it being extremely hot this time last year. But then again maybe global warming (or colding I should say) is catchin up to us....

oh and randomly, when I went to work earlier, there was a sign that said something about if you love yourself, forget the narcotics....I found it extremely random since there are like 3 classes left in the school cuz its the end of the year. And also, is this some new campaign to combat drug use, or was it just one of those general 'dont use drugs" kinda things....ill never fully understand this place....

Extra Slow...

...weekend. Uuhh this monotony is really making me depressed. The past few weekends have been pretty decent, but this weekend kinda just slapped me in the face. Uuhhh I hate this....

I was thinkin to do some extra extravagant bday bash, but uumm that was a negative. G recently lost her job, so we dont go anywhere anymore. Last weekend we met up and I said we should go to the movies and lunch. She almost had a heart attack and said we couldnt do both. And since food trumps everything else in general, I was down with lunch. I havent been to the club in like a decade, and no fun has been had for a while.

So I tried to get Andrea to go out with me, but since I procrastinated and waited til the last min to ask her to chill, it didnt happen. She had plans already. We planned somethin for next weekend, and Alex might join in too.

So what is there to do when there is nothin to do?!?!?! hahaha DRINK!!!!!!! so those old tendencies decided to creep back out the woodworks. I was so bored Friday night, I was like fuckit, let me just go get this bottle of green apple vodka and get fucked up! I went right to the 24 hour place in my flip-flops and head scarf and proceeded to get my bottle, juice and a big ass bag or roasted chicken chips. I got on yahoo messenger and chatted with G, and called it a night. I was sooooooooooooooooooooooo dunzo about 1AM or later.

Saturday I woke up feelin kinda woozy and remembered exactly why I hate gettin drunk. The buzzin in your head, or loomin ache that kinda is just there. But shit, wasnt nothin else to do. And the same could be said for Sat night. I took it a lil bit easier tho.

Uumm, I better do something next weekend or its tappin the damn bottle again for me. The lush is creepin up on me yall, slowly but surely.

School is for what now? (insert confused look)

I am just so ticked off that these damn students think they can come to school and chillax. Like I come to work to stand in front of the class and watch you sleep or chit chat. So being the inquisitive person that I am, I decided to get to the bottom of this foolishness (wow, havent used that in like forever).
I was on a quest. Operation who the hell do you think you are, if you will. I had the 9G first period. I came in ready to discuss just what the hell they think is suppoed to be going in during school hours and what their role as a student was. I was surprised with the responses to be honest.
Half the students were in class anyway, so the convo flowed pretty well. I asked what is school for and why are they here. And most of them replied that they are here to sleep and do what they want (how sad is it that I actually believe that they believe this). in their other classes they play cards, chew gum, talk, sleep, play on their phones etc. They said they didnt HAVE to do work and a lot of them dont. When asked what the repercussions of this was, they said nothing. The teachers yell at them and tell them to stop, but they continue anyway. One kid (damn smartass) actually tld me that I can sleep in class if I wanted to. I wanted to laugh so hard cuz it was just the funniest thing.
Not too farfetched tho. Mon and Tues I didnt have work and that only left Wed and Thurs. But many people were absent and/or preparing for the celebration so a lot of students were absent. Throw in the heat, regular 'i dont want to work' attitude of most of the students and the fact that not one student came with their textbooks, I decided to have free time in the classes for the 2 days. So yest. I was so damn bored in my own class I actually nodded off. There were like 5 girls in the class who didnt want to play any games or talk to me, so I just put my head down and did my thing......hahahahah im so horrible!
Its funny cuz Ive noticed that if I give the students free time, they dont do shit. I mean absolutely nothing. If I were them Id be bored as hell and might actually be compelled to ask for something to do.
So anyway, I also asked the students if anyone had a favorite subject. Of the 3 people who said yes, they answered gym and the other said geography. How sad is this?!?! One guy said that when I was in school he knows that I didnt like it. Quite the contrary.
I wasnt IN LOVE with school. I never woke up and said damn, cant wait to get there. But I also didnt come to school to play cards and talk shit all day. I had my days where I hated school and disliked teachers. But I liked getting good grades. I loved it actually. I like Japanese class. I like math up to a certain point. I like playing volleyball and basketball aftershcool. And if I didnt understand something, I actually went to tutoring or asked questions. I cared about school. It was my life. These kids, boy o boy. They just dont give a fuck! About anything. I really wonder what they expect to be in life. Seriously....I can picture a few bus drivers, cashiers, and vagabonds...VIVIDLY!!!
In the 10 class we had a similar convo, but it was a lil diff. Ill have to blog about that another time tho.

Well kids, hope you learned something today.....cuz my kids in school sure didnt!

Allergies

this is exactly why I dont fuck with nature. My nose has been sneezing not stop, snot drippin everywhere, and my eyes have been watery and itching.

Damnit!

Food Shopping

So I really had to step back and reevaluate what the hell was going on. I hate walkin all the way to the supermarket, then walkin all the way back home with bags. I also hate goin to the supermarket cuz everyone stares at me. which makes me uncomfortable. I hate buyin food in bulk cuz it spoils and I have to throw it away. I say all this to kinda explain why my fridge looks like this.

I finally had to look at my *thinning* self in the mirror and for the sake of my health, I decided to go to the damn supermarket and buy some food. Cuz lets just be honest, I cant eat Ranch dressing, jelly, mustard, butter and drink water for the rest of my time here *together or separately* hahahahahahaha

I have since indeed bought food to put in the fridge. Please dont worry about me.....lol

Watchmen

So I decided to go see a movie this weekend. I saw the Watchmen. Um, Im not gonna even dignify that fuckin foolishness with another word.....

Are you happy?

I've been pondering life lately (since I have soooooo much free time on my hands). And I was just wondering if you (whoever reads this blog) are happy with your life? are you happy with your current situation? would you change anything?

This is such a complicated but easy question. Ive never been a 'plan' kind of person. Altho I got good grades in high school, i never thought about goin to college at all. I didnt know what the hell i wanted to do with my life, and I still dont. But I did know that I wanted to make money, be free to do what I wanted to do, and travel to different places.

Im still young, and there is still time to make necessary changes to my life if need be, but I can honestly say that I am quite happy with my life. Altho BUG is not all its crack up to be, I have minimal responsibilities here, and its exciting for me to thrive and live in another place. It has its ups and downs, but for the most part, id say i was pretty ok with my current situation. Beside feeling like a poor vagabond cuz I cant really afford to buy all the pretty dresses I see cuz my 'PC allowance' is so damn LOW, i really have no cares right now. My family is healthy, they have jobs (amidst the bad economy), Poppa is still around, my friends are all doing ok (all of the like 3 that I still even communicate with), I can travel while I am here. Other than very minor setbacks, IM GOOD!

So, I was just wondering about you? Have you asked yourself how happy you are? If not, do so. Think about it. Hopefully your on cloud 1913 with me. If not, uummm....anyway

Oh before I go, Im sure Id be MUCH HAPPIER if I was one of those people who got an AIG bonus (and the govt wasnt tryna take it back). I hear one guy's bonus was 600 million. Im not even gonna throw my 2 cents in the game bout that bullshit!

Have a nice day folks!

*Fingers Crossed*

So I spoke to my mom yesterday and we talked about my spring break plans. Its been such a hassle gettin her over here and I dont really believe it will happen til I see a flight confirmation or something of that nature. IF she stumbles over to this side of the world, then we might go to a magical place. But I dont want to jinx it, so Ill keep it secret til I actually buy the plane ticket.

Its really the only thing ive been looking forward to these days. A nice break away from work and school!

Viva la.....you fill it in....