And it gets worse....

Today was such a horrible day, and the funny part is, it aint even over!

Woke up on the wrong side of the bed with cramps. Nothin to eat. It was so hot, and no one has called/emailed me about a damn job. And of course, my iPhone is GONE with the wind. For soem odd reason I had some hope left. Initially it kept going to voice mail when I called the number, but then it rang. I got my hopes up but no one picked up. After calling about 20 times I decided to give it up......

My mom called me sometime last night to tell me that my lil sis strolled in the house around 1:30 AM, altho her curfew is at 11:30. Her excuse: her phone was dead and she didnt know what time it was. How convenient! I was so angry. Lately I feel like she is kinda developing a bad attitude. She doesnt do any chores at home, talks back to my mom all the time, amd most importantly, started fucking up in school. I set very high standards for my lil sis, but she just doesnt see that Im trying to get her to do better. She thinks becuz she just turned 16 she can do what she wants cuz she is grown. Ha, she got another thing comin....So anyway, I had to come to the house today and smack fire out this lil girl. I told her ass to stop talkin back, jsut listen to what I gotta say and keep it moving. So this lil chicken shit had the nerve to say something to me so I smacker her ass. She stepped back and then started crying. I just went off on her ass. Im so tired of her actin up.....

Then I went to the AT&T store to get a new sim card for my phone. I spoke to a representative the day I lost the phone and he said I could get a FREE sim card, and wait 2 weeks to buy a new iPhone for about $200. Low and behold, this fucker LIED about EVERYTHING. The sim card was $25 (which I called to customer service to take care....the customer is always right!) and even if I wait, I still have to pay full price for an iPhone, the cheapest being $499. I was so fuckin digusting you know I was in the store crying. Its so unfair, and Apple think they so slick not having insurance in the iPhone. Bitch asses.......

Oh and did I mention its raining and hot.....

I just need to sit the fuck down somewhere and get a drink!

FYI Update

Andy Roddick (No 6) has just beat Andy Murray (No 3) I cant believe it! The match was so intense. I thoguht Andy Murray was wipe the floor with Roddick honestly. But Roddick hung in there and beat the Brit. The look on Murrays face was priceless, and it kinda reminded me of when Nadal got beat by Soderling recently. NO ONE SAW IT COMING.

Ok, so Im indeed rethinkin the point that I think Roddick should retire. Ok, actually Im not, he needs to get that poppin....He is facing Federer in the finals, and Ill put any amount of money that Federer is winning that joint. I know it!

Oh, I just finished eating another awesome sandwich and broccoli!!!! It was sooooooooo good. Uuhh, my fat-kid tendencies are just slowly but surely catchin up with me. I need somethin to do....like drink...hahahaha yall already know i got that Green Apple vodka poppin off....WAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Oh, I didnt know that....

So um yeah, I was on the phone with my sis today and she said the dumbest thing Ive heard in a while.

So I sent her an email and was expecting a response. Never got one. I decided to call today. So I asked why she hadnt responded. I needed her to print something out for me and wanted to know if she did it or not. So she has one of those smart phones, and can check her email from the phone. She has a registered email account through the phone but she also has a gmail account. So I asked is she printed the paper out yet. She said no, there wasnt any printing paper in the house. So I said why didnt she go to an internet cafe and print it out there. You wanna know what this dumb ass says to me?!?! "I cant cuz its on my phone"

Now Im a bit confused as to what the hell she is talkin bout so I inquire about this statement. She proceeds to offer this long as explanation of how she has an email account through her phone and how she can only check it on the phone and that I sent the email to her phone so she couldnt print it out. But I said "Tiff, I sent it to your gmail account" so she says and I checked it on my phone. So I go, "Tiff, you can check your gmail on the computer. If you go to gmail.com, you just type in your info and you can check your messages ON THE COMPUTER."

Her reply, "oh. I didnt know that"...she was dead ass serious!

WTF?!?! Are you kidding me? You mean to tell me that you SERIOUSLY thought you could only check your messages from your phone and that was it. Did you NOT know that gmail was created by Google, the global search engine. Oh My fuckin goodness.....

This shit right here, is a PRIME example why kids really need to stay in school and their education. I was relaly in disbelief when I heard homegirl say that hot shit. I mean damn, how dumb and unaware can one be. I tell you boy, some of these kids today aint concerned with nothing else but lookin fly and the latest new dance move.

Foolishness in my own home.....damn!

what does it all mean???

In my morose and lonesome state of being, ive been pondering the meanin of life. I know, that sounds so...deep and heavy. But its the truth folks. Ive always envied those people who seem to know what they want to do with their lives, and actually have some type of direction they are headed in, or a path to follow. Me, uumm I cant even think past a 2-week time span if that. I think its kinda cool to be free as a bird......

These are just random thoughts, but just follow me for a sec.....so I saw this pic of this girl I used to be real cool with. And I mean we were real cool back in the day. I thought she was big shit poppin at one point. But now, uumm thats a negativo!!! In the pic, homegirl was lookin mighty jacked up. Hair all fucked up, lookin like she had one too many Burger King double whoppers with bacon.... Now why she was walkin on the damn planet let alone around NYC like that is beyond me, but anyway.....Seein her like that honestly made me feel good. At my age, doin what I do, I look damn good. The friendship didnt end THAT bad, it kinda just dissipated. But she DID look horrible.....

Which brings me to my next point. I am a firm believer in "out of sight, out of mind" People you call friends who, unless they see you, could give too shits about you. And im talkin bout real friens. People you were with all the time on a regular basis. But I suppose things cant always be the same, and when things change, feelings and actions change.

I also think that people are in your life for seasons. They touch you, teach you a few things, and make you realize what they are supposed to. They play a role and then POOF, they are gone. The experience might be good and it might be bad, but you learn something from every experience, every exchange.

I guess I just feel so out the loop. I used to be really cool with a lot of people, but when i travel, its like those relationships are lost. When I was in japan, it was so difficult to stay friends with a lot of people.

Oh, ok so another random thought....grad school. Been checkin out a few things in my spare time and found this really good program Im interested in. I supose being proactive and having a plan doesnt help one bit. The program was really good, and its at a great school in NY.

Oh so to connect this whole blog and so that its not just extra random, my point was why have friends when you can just be a loner???? hahahahaha

LEarn to depend on yourself and if people are in your corner then they should be there regardless the situation or the distance. LEarn to depend on yourself.......AND finally, you can always take comfort in the fact that when things dont go your way, and you are in a rough spot, you can alway look at others and how bad they are doing to cheer yourself up. That sounded so bad, but those who know me know damn well I meant it, and that Im such a....yeah you were thinkin it, a bitch! hahahahaha

At least I know that, and Im cool with it....Lookin forward to an easy work week.

ciao kiddies

The Cheese Stands Alone

So its test day (this past thursday). The final reckoning....Reemption day....Im settling the final score. and the only thing I can think to say, is the cheese stands alone. Its the last text of the school year for my 9g and 10g classes. All the work we have been studying for the past 2 months was in the test. So all that not paying attention, doing other work in my class, throwing a hissy fit cuz folks didnt want to do certain work. and of course on test prep days, they some stud act like they dont care. but all that has come back to bite people in the ass, and on test day, you are all alone and have to account for something.

For the 9g they had an essay. I went over with them what I wanted them to do for an opinion essay, you know, how to write the intro, and what goes in the body of the essay. The students almost had a heart attack the day I told them they would be tested on this stuff. Naturally they already know everything and I suppose they felt they didnt need to review this in class. But Im sure some folks didnt do as well and they think they did. One girl didnt even write anything but her name on the test. Altho that disappointed me a lot, I cant say I didnt expect it or was a bit surprsied. I gave the class 2 questions and they were to choose one, and write their opinion on the topic by answering a questions. For example, Do what kids see on tv effect their behavior, or when learning a foreign language, do you think it's necessary to travel to the place where that language is spoken? We went over these topics in class and im eager to see what their responses were. I feel like im gonna have to break a few hearts if the essay is not written how it should be...oh wells

So this was a decent test. There was no possible way to cheat. Especially since I had 4 versions of the test with different questions. So the first half of the class could have told the people in the second half what the questions were, but there was no guarantee they would necessarily get that question. And since it was based on opinion, there really was no way to cheat. But the 10g was a bit different.

There test was on Romeo and Juliet, and a reading we covered in the textbook. And let me just say, uumm seriously guys?!?!?! Not only did I devote one class to a test prep, covering EXACTLY what would be on the test, but the damn questions were taken DIRECTLY from the textbook. We answered questions in class and I just took those and put them on the test. And for Romeo and Juliet, all they had to do was paraphrase what several quotes said. And there wasnt THAT much stuff to study.

But as you can imagine, folks were goin above and voyond to get their cheat on. Using cell phones (WTF?!?!?) asking other people for answers...in BG as if I couldnt understand, cheat sheets. And again, I cant say I was surprised. But honestly, I was diappointed. I didnt think the test was super hard, and if folks managed to pay attention in class (1) then study just a LIL BIT (2) they would have done fine.

For this reason, I had to make 5 different verisons of the 10g test. YES I made 5 different verisons. One girl in one class actually wrote what was on her test on a sheet of paper so that she could share it with someone in the nest class (or someone who was absent that day i suspect). I caught her with it and tore it up. Its funny cuz I dont even think she did that well on her own damn test. I had to announce to the class that 1. there were several different versions of the test and that 2. the other class DEFINATELY didnt have the same test as them. This one kid kept askin this girl for answers and I would look at her with the face that said you betta not say one word! She looked at me, smiled and shrugged her shoulders as if to say I dont know.

Cheating really is pointless, esp since the test was so damn easy and was straight from the damn textbook. I have no sympathy for these lil jokers!

I hope I dont break people's hearts with their end of the year grades. I look at it like this: how you gon get mad at me cuz I give you the grade you deserve. You been comin to class listenin to music, not doin work, not takin notes, tryna cheat on the test, and expect me to give you a decent grade. Sikeeeeeeeeeeeeee, not gonna happen playa. For those students who did what they were supposed to do, you will be given the grade you deserve. Again, I have no sympathy or qualms about failin people or givin them low grades, esp since aug its on its way and ima be out this bitch......hahahahaha