Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Ode to Delmario (my secret lover)
This post is just a lil personal something for my dear friend Delmar. Altho I am so far away from you, and sometimes I feel like we barely communicate (cuz we didn't until recently) I just want to take a sec to reflect on what was a very special friendship for me......Here we go
I just got back from my study abroad in Japan and it was my senior year. I was slim, trim, and oh so fab, and I was determined to make my senior year my best one ever. In comes Delmar. A sophomore light skinned cutey who was almost as fab and I. He was my RA......We hit it off pretty quick, prob cuz I kept harrassin him with my problems and knockin on his door. Man, Delmar, you were one of my best friends, and you really made my senior year the best it could be. I never really told you how much your friendship meant to me, but it did, and it does.
If you are still reading this far, I suppose this is just to honor such a good friend, cuz they are few and far between. Often we take things for granted, and never realize a good thing when its in our face. So this post is just to recognize not only a good person, but an awesome friend. If you have someone like that, please just give them a shout out, or a thank you!
So a few short stories about this delmar cat. He swear he the coolest kid on the block. And frankly he is. I found myself jealous of his popularity at times. He is just so cool, that he knew everyone and everyone liked him. I wish I could be that outgoing at times, but those who know me know that I need to get comfy with folks before I open up to them. But Delmar, def one of the cool kids.
I remember when my mom helped me buy a car (ok, you could basically say she bought it). It was in NY in the shop, and I was in school in OH. It was ready and I had to fly to NY and was plannin on driving 8 hours to OH over the weekend. Some idiot got my hopes up and said he wanted to come, but at the last min cancelled cuz his moms was like nah you cant go. So Delmar, being the good friend he is, jumped on the band wagon and got a ticket to NY (which I paid half for come to think of it). We partied in The Village were the sweet meat hangs out with my sis. We drank ate, and had a good time.
And I cant forget the countless times I came to his room asking stupid guy questions, or complaining about my love life. I was one of the hottest chicks on campus (if not the hottest) and i had dudes (and chicks) all over me. Naturally I had a few probs and Del was always there to help and vice versa. My most fondest memories of Del tho, were when we were talkin bout fashion, schemin on ways to get to the mall, or buy new clothes, or puttin on mini fashion shows in his room.
Then we really stepped our game up and hosted a charity event on campus. I mean we was straight legit. We did a lil dance performance in the beginning, outfit changes, funny skits. I mean we was better than the damn MTV awards. We rehearsed in his room plenty of times, tryna make our skits hilarious. We pulled it off too.
So Del, you better be reading this. This is just a lil something to let you know how I feel. I truly do love you. When we were together, we were a damn riot. You always had me laughing. You is cool as a fan, and such a good person. I truly did appreciate the time we spent together my senior year, cuz they were some of my best. Well anyway, im in Europe now, and you are all the way in the states, and I keep having the damnest feeling like we will lose contact. But if that happens, I just want you to know that I do love you.
Oh, and that night we partied like rock stars with ben and marcy.....hahahahaha *never forgotten*
Oh and gossipin about other folks......pics to follow
I just got back from my study abroad in Japan and it was my senior year. I was slim, trim, and oh so fab, and I was determined to make my senior year my best one ever. In comes Delmar. A sophomore light skinned cutey who was almost as fab and I. He was my RA......We hit it off pretty quick, prob cuz I kept harrassin him with my problems and knockin on his door. Man, Delmar, you were one of my best friends, and you really made my senior year the best it could be. I never really told you how much your friendship meant to me, but it did, and it does.
If you are still reading this far, I suppose this is just to honor such a good friend, cuz they are few and far between. Often we take things for granted, and never realize a good thing when its in our face. So this post is just to recognize not only a good person, but an awesome friend. If you have someone like that, please just give them a shout out, or a thank you!
So a few short stories about this delmar cat. He swear he the coolest kid on the block. And frankly he is. I found myself jealous of his popularity at times. He is just so cool, that he knew everyone and everyone liked him. I wish I could be that outgoing at times, but those who know me know that I need to get comfy with folks before I open up to them. But Delmar, def one of the cool kids.
I remember when my mom helped me buy a car (ok, you could basically say she bought it). It was in NY in the shop, and I was in school in OH. It was ready and I had to fly to NY and was plannin on driving 8 hours to OH over the weekend. Some idiot got my hopes up and said he wanted to come, but at the last min cancelled cuz his moms was like nah you cant go. So Delmar, being the good friend he is, jumped on the band wagon and got a ticket to NY (which I paid half for come to think of it). We partied in The Village were the sweet meat hangs out with my sis. We drank ate, and had a good time.
And I cant forget the countless times I came to his room asking stupid guy questions, or complaining about my love life. I was one of the hottest chicks on campus (if not the hottest) and i had dudes (and chicks) all over me. Naturally I had a few probs and Del was always there to help and vice versa. My most fondest memories of Del tho, were when we were talkin bout fashion, schemin on ways to get to the mall, or buy new clothes, or puttin on mini fashion shows in his room.
Then we really stepped our game up and hosted a charity event on campus. I mean we was straight legit. We did a lil dance performance in the beginning, outfit changes, funny skits. I mean we was better than the damn MTV awards. We rehearsed in his room plenty of times, tryna make our skits hilarious. We pulled it off too.
So Del, you better be reading this. This is just a lil something to let you know how I feel. I truly do love you. When we were together, we were a damn riot. You always had me laughing. You is cool as a fan, and such a good person. I truly did appreciate the time we spent together my senior year, cuz they were some of my best. Well anyway, im in Europe now, and you are all the way in the states, and I keep having the damnest feeling like we will lose contact. But if that happens, I just want you to know that I do love you.
Oh, and that night we partied like rock stars with ben and marcy.....hahahahaha *never forgotten*
Oh and gossipin about other folks......pics to follow
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Old Stuff
I'm sure Jordan will appreciate this since that was her hackin up her lungs in the background.....ENJOY!
For Shits and Giggles.....
Because I have absolutely NOTHING else to do in my spare time, I figured, why not this:
There is more to come, so keep your eyes open.....
Oh Really?
So in the creepy old man news of the day (cuz I seem to attract them like magnets) I got a quick story for you all. I live about 2 steps from the pazar and I usually only buy cheese, potatoes and eggs from there cuz the big supermarket is pretty close to me. So there is this guy who I see often. I went to buy eggs one day and he asked what my name was and where I was from, and mentioned how beautiful I was. I'm young, and new to the neighborhood, so I didnt mind it all that much.
Fast forward to yesterday. So I'm walkin home and I see this guy. He asked when I was gonna come into his shop to buy something, and I said well I was planin on comin right now to get some cheese. So I go in the store (and there is always a female attendant there) and get my cheese. So of course he decides this is the appropriate time to ask if I want coffee. I'm thinkin fuck no, cuz 1. I don't drink coffee, and 2. you gon use that as a prerequisite to dinner or something else. But to be nice, I obliged.
MISTAKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
He came back with coffee for me and juice for him and the girl. So here come the questions: Where are you from again? How long will you be here? and MOST importantly, Do you have a boyfriend? So I answer very quickly, yes I have a man, and altho he is in NY we love each other dearly and he might visit sometime in the near future. Here I am thinkin I'm shuttin him down, ending the convo, but he didnt give 2 shits. THEY NEVER DO!
So at this point I must report that this dude is AGAIN, like my grandpops. I mean white hair, wrinkled skin, everything. So he tells me that he likes me. And I say (becuz I've spoken to him all of one time, for about 3 minutes) what do you like about me? and his slick ass says everything! Then he says he wants me to come see him again tomorrow, and how we should go to his VILLAGE for dinner, and how interesting I am, and how his Mercedes is right outside.
Now come on homey, that bullshit might work for these young bulgarian chicks who want a sugar GRANDDADDY and dont care about their education, love, ATTRACTION or even looks. We'll call them the TEENY BOPPERS. You can run that "my mercedes is right outside" shit on them, but me, NAH BUDDY. Not gonna happen. Cuz even in a million years, if I had no man, no prospects of gettin a man, no self respect, I wouldn't even look your way. Aside from the fact that you are old, creepy, decrepit and nasty, but for the simple fact that you could do NOTHIN for me. Not only do you not speak english, you live in a damn VILLAGE and work in a store while also selling Christmas trees and homemade liquor on the street to passerbys. I aint tryna knock the hustle, but I'm just not into that!
And so I know that for the female readers of my blog, you may have been approached by someone tryna play house. I just wanted to run this experience by you all in particular. The culture here seems to be really older dudes (and I mean upwards of 35) gettin girls as young as high schoolers (no exaggeration). And again, maybe thats what they do here, but i'm not wit it. I just couldn't help but laugh at old dude, cuz he must have thought he was spittin some serious game in my ear.
So, what have we learned today kids? Men are all the same no matter where in the world you are. And it sucks especially for me, cuz not only am I a globetrotter, but I'm sexy as hell. Tis is the curse of lookin as good as I do......oh, and I for damn sure have to find yet ANOTHER place to buy cheese and eggs.....
Fast forward to yesterday. So I'm walkin home and I see this guy. He asked when I was gonna come into his shop to buy something, and I said well I was planin on comin right now to get some cheese. So I go in the store (and there is always a female attendant there) and get my cheese. So of course he decides this is the appropriate time to ask if I want coffee. I'm thinkin fuck no, cuz 1. I don't drink coffee, and 2. you gon use that as a prerequisite to dinner or something else. But to be nice, I obliged.
MISTAKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
He came back with coffee for me and juice for him and the girl. So here come the questions: Where are you from again? How long will you be here? and MOST importantly, Do you have a boyfriend? So I answer very quickly, yes I have a man, and altho he is in NY we love each other dearly and he might visit sometime in the near future. Here I am thinkin I'm shuttin him down, ending the convo, but he didnt give 2 shits. THEY NEVER DO!
So at this point I must report that this dude is AGAIN, like my grandpops. I mean white hair, wrinkled skin, everything. So he tells me that he likes me. And I say (becuz I've spoken to him all of one time, for about 3 minutes) what do you like about me? and his slick ass says everything! Then he says he wants me to come see him again tomorrow, and how we should go to his VILLAGE for dinner, and how interesting I am, and how his Mercedes is right outside.
Now come on homey, that bullshit might work for these young bulgarian chicks who want a sugar GRANDDADDY and dont care about their education, love, ATTRACTION or even looks. We'll call them the TEENY BOPPERS. You can run that "my mercedes is right outside" shit on them, but me, NAH BUDDY. Not gonna happen. Cuz even in a million years, if I had no man, no prospects of gettin a man, no self respect, I wouldn't even look your way. Aside from the fact that you are old, creepy, decrepit and nasty, but for the simple fact that you could do NOTHIN for me. Not only do you not speak english, you live in a damn VILLAGE and work in a store while also selling Christmas trees and homemade liquor on the street to passerbys. I aint tryna knock the hustle, but I'm just not into that!
And so I know that for the female readers of my blog, you may have been approached by someone tryna play house. I just wanted to run this experience by you all in particular. The culture here seems to be really older dudes (and I mean upwards of 35) gettin girls as young as high schoolers (no exaggeration). And again, maybe thats what they do here, but i'm not wit it. I just couldn't help but laugh at old dude, cuz he must have thought he was spittin some serious game in my ear.
So, what have we learned today kids? Men are all the same no matter where in the world you are. And it sucks especially for me, cuz not only am I a globetrotter, but I'm sexy as hell. Tis is the curse of lookin as good as I do......oh, and I for damn sure have to find yet ANOTHER place to buy cheese and eggs.....
Monday, December 15, 2008
How Cute....
So in an unprecedented move, I will post something good today! Aside from having a decent day today, I bought a new shirt to complete an outfit I'm wearing to a X-mas banquet, and I went to a ballet performance.
From the beginning: School was pretty decent. The student who I wrote about in another blog who was disrepectful apologized to me! Yes, he APOLOGIZED. He said that his behavior was bad, and he was really sorry and it wouldn't happen again. So of course I was already floating on cloud 1913. I'm working on the Nativity and I have my 9th graders acting out the story. Altho there are no Will Smiths or Julia Roberts in my class, they did pretty ok. They created their own dialogues to go with the story which we learned last week, and began to act it out in front of the class in 4 different scenes. I'm hoping to get more feeling out of them tho......
Next: I was invited to a banquet on Monday and I have a nice dress to wear but no shirt. so I went out today in search of something not so expensive. I had to pay 40 leva for a plain white button up shirt, but it really was the cheapest I could find. I met up with Dora's daughter and we had dinner together. She speaks really good English and she is funny. We were joking around and it felt good to laugh with someone. We actually went to a few places that we didn't like so we left. One place we went to was really smokey and I almost hacked up a lung. I could have swore someone shouted out nigger (but I'll pretend I heard something else) and the waitress never came back to the table after dropping off the menu. We settled for the pizza place and I had pasta.
Then: I went to a X-mas ballet performance. It was so cute. The kids were adorable and they didn't look half bad. The costumes kinda confused me, as they didn't go very well with the music and were just odd, but the dancing was very nice. Check the pics up top.......
Overall, today was a good day.....Hope you all had good days as well, and if not, I don't mind if you pretend that you are me (most people do anyway)
Shout out to Dre too. I wear a size 11 and it damn sure is hard to find that size. I feel your pain!
From the beginning: School was pretty decent. The student who I wrote about in another blog who was disrepectful apologized to me! Yes, he APOLOGIZED. He said that his behavior was bad, and he was really sorry and it wouldn't happen again. So of course I was already floating on cloud 1913. I'm working on the Nativity and I have my 9th graders acting out the story. Altho there are no Will Smiths or Julia Roberts in my class, they did pretty ok. They created their own dialogues to go with the story which we learned last week, and began to act it out in front of the class in 4 different scenes. I'm hoping to get more feeling out of them tho......
Next: I was invited to a banquet on Monday and I have a nice dress to wear but no shirt. so I went out today in search of something not so expensive. I had to pay 40 leva for a plain white button up shirt, but it really was the cheapest I could find. I met up with Dora's daughter and we had dinner together. She speaks really good English and she is funny. We were joking around and it felt good to laugh with someone. We actually went to a few places that we didn't like so we left. One place we went to was really smokey and I almost hacked up a lung. I could have swore someone shouted out nigger (but I'll pretend I heard something else) and the waitress never came back to the table after dropping off the menu. We settled for the pizza place and I had pasta.
Then: I went to a X-mas ballet performance. It was so cute. The kids were adorable and they didn't look half bad. The costumes kinda confused me, as they didn't go very well with the music and were just odd, but the dancing was very nice. Check the pics up top.......
Overall, today was a good day.....Hope you all had good days as well, and if not, I don't mind if you pretend that you are me (most people do anyway)
Shout out to Dre too. I wear a size 11 and it damn sure is hard to find that size. I feel your pain!
Excuse Me?!?!
So in the interesting (but very creepy) news of the day, I've come to realize that people either really like me, or don't at all. And I'm cool with that. So as stated below, that maintenance guy from my school (who is old enough to be your grandpa) came to fix my lights situation. We drove about 3 minutes from my school to my apt in his car. He asked if I had a "priyatel" and altho I thought he meant "boyfriend(cuz sometimes that what they are asking about)" I also thought he meant an "friends(the translation of the word)." And since I have NEITHER, I answered no and kept it moving. Little did I know that this would be a prerequisite for harrassment later.
so fastforward to him fixing the lights. I checked to see if the TV would come on and switched on all the lights just to be positive everything was working. So I'm patronizing him, I shook his hand and said thank goodness for you. He pulls me closer and wraps his arm around my neck and kisses my cheek. Then this MOFO has the nerve to kinda push my face toward him so as to kiss him in the mouth. He says "one on the lips." I pull away in DISGUST and say ne ne ne (no no no). He comments, (in bulgarian) "so thats why you don't have a priyatel (boyfriend) cuz you don't want one." And I'll assume he came to that conclusion cuz I didn't want to kiss him on the mouth! So I say that's exactly right, I for damn sure don't want a bulgarian man, esp. since I have a boyfriend in the states (and I proceeded to show him his pic).
So then he tries to hit me wit the bullshit "oh well i'm so much older than you. how old are you? (23) Oh, well I'm 56 and I;m like your grandfather. I look at you like my own child." Really a child whom at 23 you kiss in the mouth??? Please, I'm not a believer.......
This reminds me of the time I was in the elevator in my building and some random guy on the elevator with me starts kissing me on my damn face. The nerve of these damn Bulgarians.....
so fastforward to him fixing the lights. I checked to see if the TV would come on and switched on all the lights just to be positive everything was working. So I'm patronizing him, I shook his hand and said thank goodness for you. He pulls me closer and wraps his arm around my neck and kisses my cheek. Then this MOFO has the nerve to kinda push my face toward him so as to kiss him in the mouth. He says "one on the lips." I pull away in DISGUST and say ne ne ne (no no no). He comments, (in bulgarian) "so thats why you don't have a priyatel (boyfriend) cuz you don't want one." And I'll assume he came to that conclusion cuz I didn't want to kiss him on the mouth! So I say that's exactly right, I for damn sure don't want a bulgarian man, esp. since I have a boyfriend in the states (and I proceeded to show him his pic).
So then he tries to hit me wit the bullshit "oh well i'm so much older than you. how old are you? (23) Oh, well I'm 56 and I;m like your grandfather. I look at you like my own child." Really a child whom at 23 you kiss in the mouth??? Please, I'm not a believer.......
This reminds me of the time I was in the elevator in my building and some random guy on the elevator with me starts kissing me on my damn face. The nerve of these damn Bulgarians.....
It's Lights out....AGAIN!
So in almost that exact same fashion (how is that possible) as the last time my lights suddenly cut off, it happened again just yesterday. Quick recap: For thanksgiving Jordan and I decided to have a small (just us 2) get together. She bought some food over, I bought chicken and made fried wings and of course the most necessary thing: Green Apple Vodka. Friday we got all ready to grub (eat) on some tasty food. I had the wings cooking on the stove, when all of a sudden everything shuts off in my apt. Lights. the damn Oven, the Stove, the Heater, the TV, EVERYTHING. Now i'm thinkin everything will shut back on in a min or 2. 15 minutes, and still nothing. At this point (with no candles or a damn flashlight) I decided to venture over to unchartered territory: my neighbors house. Dictionary in hand, I knocked and make a lon story short another neighbor brought me some candles and eventually a piece I needed to put into my fuse box (mine broke). No longer battling the thought of possible starvation or freezing to death, Jordan and I celebrated with a nice home-cooked meal (I did the cooking).
So yesterday, I'm jamming to some music videos when all of a sudden AGAIN, everything shuts off. I go to my hallway to look at the fuse box and this thing is on fire. Its glowing red and it looked likeit was about to explode. No lights for me. It was about 8:30. I lit some candles (after I had to walk to a non stop to buy a damn lighter) and watched a tape on my camcorded (thank that lord for that). I sadly went to bed about 10:00 shivering under my small blanket.
The maintenance guy from school came to fix it today.......don;t let this happen to you!
So yesterday, I'm jamming to some music videos when all of a sudden AGAIN, everything shuts off. I go to my hallway to look at the fuse box and this thing is on fire. Its glowing red and it looked likeit was about to explode. No lights for me. It was about 8:30. I lit some candles (after I had to walk to a non stop to buy a damn lighter) and watched a tape on my camcorded (thank that lord for that). I sadly went to bed about 10:00 shivering under my small blanket.
The maintenance guy from school came to fix it today.......don;t let this happen to you!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Christmas Spirit!
Haide Christmas Spirit! I never really paid much attention to Christmas or decorations. To be honest it is quite a hassle. Buying the right gift for numerous people is not only tiring, but downright ridiculous at times. Its always busy everywhere, streets full of other shoppers, crowded trains and so on. But since I am not in the midst of all that, I kinda miss it. So I've decided to spruce up my apt with some decorations (bez a X-mas tree).
How funny is the first pic? Stockings are supposed to be "hung above the chimney with care" but since I don't have a damn chimney, the radiator will have to do. Now obviously this is just for the pic cuz if I left that there, my apt would probably burn down! Next we have my door. There is this huge santa carrying a bag of gifts (which I wish was full of shoes in my size) and lastly, a cute lil candle I bought with a santa (for when the lights go out in my apt).
come on everyone, let's get into the holiday spirit. kumbaya my lord, kumbaya Everybody.....
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
What in the?!?!
And becuz I'm feeling extra swell today, I decided to post this for your reading enjoyment, sorta like a thank you for coming to my blog spot! Now haven't you all ever wondered, while out and about minding your own business, what the hell?!?! You see some lil pop tart in a dress or skirt cut extremely too low, showin too much bony thigh for your eyes to see. Or maybe it was a mismatching outfit, someone thought it appropriate to wear purple pants, a green button-up blouse with dark orange pumps and a light orange bag, and of course with a fresh hairstyle consisting of "balkan red" highlights. Or just maybe you saw someone with the most hideous jacket/hat/pant print etc. And you thought to yourself What the hell?!?!
Well that ladies and gentlemen is exactly what I was thinkin when I saw this. I know the pic is blurry, but I was literally tryna be incognito while stalkin this girl so I could get this pic (in stealth mode). She had on a small leather jacket, SHORTS, the thinnest pair of stockings I've ever seen, and of course, some shoe boots. Now of course I was walking around in search of some gloves, cuz it was cold as hell today. But she thought it appropriate to come outside dressed like this. Oh bozhe someone please help these girls. Tryna be so damn cute and sexy with the least bit of clothes on, not to mention the smallest (lookin like they borrowed a shirt from their lil sis but wearin it as a dress).
Folks, lets do better! I'm beggin at this point......
Ok I'll admit it.........
So in the "ok I'll admit it" news of the day, I just saw Briteny Spears' new video for circus. And everyone (should) knows that I am not the biggest BS (hahaha her initials are BS!) fan. But Jojo worships homegirl, and I can admit, that I do bob my head when Womanizer comes on, and my favorite part of that video is when she does this lil shimmy move. And once again, BS has done an outstanding job of making me a *fan* of her new song and video, Circus. Now let's not get ahead of ourselves too much, I'm not buying her damn album, I'm just sayin.....
And for your listening enjoyment, here is her new video.....Especially you Jordan (who I suspect already knows the damn choreography and has matching outfits as Britney)
And for your listening enjoyment, here is her new video.....Especially you Jordan (who I suspect already knows the damn choreography and has matching outfits as Britney)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zeR3NSYcHk
I'm Really Really Hot.....
In this first edition of I'm Really Really Hot, we have Fonzworth Bentley. He has some reality show thing on MTV and on every episode he just looks so dapper. He got his start workin' for Diddy, openin doors and holdin his damn umbrellas. I guess he made a couple dollars from that and branched out on his own. He actually has his own umbrella line, dances, raps/sings and plays that violin. He is just all types of "yes please."
And next we have Ami James. The owner of Miami Inc., a tattoo place in Miami. He has a show that comes on the Living and Travel channel. I don't know what it is about him, but he is definately the one. He could do me anywhere, anytime, anyplace, and hell no I'm not talkin bout a damn tattoo. He is all types of "yes please" mixed with some "thank you ma'am." I'm just sayin.....
Thanks....
It is very comforting to know that so many (about 5) people read my blog and sent some kind words my way. I have honestly learned that in life things come at you, people say/do things unexpectedly. I can say that this is not the first time someone has said something rude to me becuase I am black, and it probably won't be the last. Ignorance is a disease affecting millions these days.....
With that being said, my day was made that much more better when I read people's comments, messages and received phone calls becuz you were all concerned. I feel much better now. I talked to basically the entire damn PC staff and they all had nothing but good things to say to me, and tried their hardest to cheer me up. For for all of these things, I would like to just say a big THANK YOU. It really meant a lot to me that people were concerned.
So, tomorrow I'm gonna go to work with my head high and let this be just an experience that does not deter me from my ultimate goal, of saving the world! hahahaha
With that being said, my day was made that much more better when I read people's comments, messages and received phone calls becuz you were all concerned. I feel much better now. I talked to basically the entire damn PC staff and they all had nothing but good things to say to me, and tried their hardest to cheer me up. For for all of these things, I would like to just say a big THANK YOU. It really meant a lot to me that people were concerned.
So, tomorrow I'm gonna go to work with my head high and let this be just an experience that does not deter me from my ultimate goal, of saving the world! hahahaha
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Here we go....
Clearly this is just the day for haters. Someone apparently wants Barack Obama, excuse me President-Elect Obama's nationality brought under scrutiny. They claim he is not really a citizen of the US cuz 1. his mom is american and dad is kenya (who actually had British citizenship) and becuase he had dual nationality when he was born, he couldn't possibly be a "national born citizen," and 2. because is birth certificate form Hawaii is fake according to a Yahoo News article. Come on folks, WHY? There apparently was more than one appeal made to several different courts questioning Obama's elegibility to be president. Now altho the article does say that one person in particular also questioned John McCain and roger Calero's citizenship also, this shit aint never happen before in history. And I think it has something to do with the fact that Obama is black. But that again is my personal opinion, cuz you know I keeps it really real! lol
You can check the article here for yourself: http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20081209/ap_on_go_su_co/scotus_obama
What the hell is going on today????
You can check the article here for yourself: http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20081209/ap_on_go_su_co/scotus_obama
What the hell is going on today????
3rd time's the charm.....
Ok folks, so quick review: My name is Shaun. I'm fly as all hell. I love Japanese food, and shopping. I'm black. I love making fun of other people. I'm a racist, but only on days ending in "y." For those of you who know me, this is nothing new. Especially the part where I just wrote that I am black. Clearly I didn't JUST become black. With that being said, lets get into this damn blog post......Oh, and while we are reviewing, this past friday, someone shouted "white power" to me, and while I was on the train, some idiot told me I must have stayed in the sun too long.
Ok, so the 3rd time must be the charm, cuz guess what the fuck happened to me today.....Some lil idiots decided it was the cool thing to shout "hello nigger" to me as I'm walking down the street. Yes, you read correctly......but it gets better.....
I went to buy my students some small gifts. Granted it was freezing cold today and I was dead tired. But I trudged through all that and copped (bought for the "other folks who might not understand) a few nice things for my kids. I'm walking in the square on my way home when some kids just blurt out "hello nigger." So I turn around, and look as they all (3 of them) start laughing. I keeps it moving. Then these bastards decide to through something at me and it came kinda close to hitting me. They ran (punk asses!)
Now I'm livid at this point. Rude and dirty looks I can deal with. Apparently I am the first EVER black person in Pernik. But being called a nigger and having shit thrown at me? Come on now, wouldn't you agree thats a damn stretch? So I get back home and right to my local Peace Corps (PC) staffer letting them know that not only am I fucking boiling with rage, that I do not appreciate this type of disrespect and it really makes me regret coming to Bulgaria. I mean shit I just let those other 2 comments slide off my back, but this. uummm something different.
It took a sec for Chavvy D to call me from the Peace Corps. He tried to comfort me with the usual Shaun you are great, ur beautiful, ur so smart, everyone loves you, we can't do this without you (ok ok gross exaggeration) but you get the point. And anyone who knows me, knows that I can be the biggest punk, cuz when I say I was crying like a baby, I was really in tears. Not only were my feelings hurt, but I almost felt less than a human. And granted I know that I am great, smart and all those other accolades people associate me with, but words hurt. And 3 insults like that in a row is kinda ridiculous. I mean I really felt (still do) horrible. And once I started crying I couldn't stop.
This is the underlying shit that creeps up from time to time. At first it was a curious lil boy stopped dead in his tracks staring at me in amazing while I was eating my chicken wrap from KFC. Then it was a kid while I was walking in the park, shouting for everyone to hear in Bulgarian, "looks she is black." Now its hello nigger and white power. And I mean really folks, the Bulgarian word for black person is a similar word to nigger, but I hear them say Afro-american on tv and the news. So I know somebody has heard of that term.
So tomorrow I will miss work to go to the PC office to "talk" about this cuz clearly that is all that can be done. this is one of the low points in my life. Where being smart or good looking just isn't enough. Cuz people first and foremost see your skin color. And I know that it's not everyone. Not all Europeans are racist. But it does still exist and it's fucked up when good people like myself have to second guess who they are because of the comments of some dip-shit little kids who don't know any better. And although while writing this I slipped in some jokes here and there, this shit aint that funny, its real.
*DISCLAIMER* I do acknowledge the fact that not only white people are racist. Anyone can be racist. There are people who base their thoughts and perceptions on the color of people's skin. I'm reporting to you a first hand experience and these are just my opinions.
Ok, so the 3rd time must be the charm, cuz guess what the fuck happened to me today.....Some lil idiots decided it was the cool thing to shout "hello nigger" to me as I'm walking down the street. Yes, you read correctly......but it gets better.....
I went to buy my students some small gifts. Granted it was freezing cold today and I was dead tired. But I trudged through all that and copped (bought for the "other folks who might not understand) a few nice things for my kids. I'm walking in the square on my way home when some kids just blurt out "hello nigger." So I turn around, and look as they all (3 of them) start laughing. I keeps it moving. Then these bastards decide to through something at me and it came kinda close to hitting me. They ran (punk asses!)
Now I'm livid at this point. Rude and dirty looks I can deal with. Apparently I am the first EVER black person in Pernik. But being called a nigger and having shit thrown at me? Come on now, wouldn't you agree thats a damn stretch? So I get back home and right to my local Peace Corps (PC) staffer letting them know that not only am I fucking boiling with rage, that I do not appreciate this type of disrespect and it really makes me regret coming to Bulgaria. I mean shit I just let those other 2 comments slide off my back, but this. uummm something different.
It took a sec for Chavvy D to call me from the Peace Corps. He tried to comfort me with the usual Shaun you are great, ur beautiful, ur so smart, everyone loves you, we can't do this without you (ok ok gross exaggeration) but you get the point. And anyone who knows me, knows that I can be the biggest punk, cuz when I say I was crying like a baby, I was really in tears. Not only were my feelings hurt, but I almost felt less than a human. And granted I know that I am great, smart and all those other accolades people associate me with, but words hurt. And 3 insults like that in a row is kinda ridiculous. I mean I really felt (still do) horrible. And once I started crying I couldn't stop.
This is the underlying shit that creeps up from time to time. At first it was a curious lil boy stopped dead in his tracks staring at me in amazing while I was eating my chicken wrap from KFC. Then it was a kid while I was walking in the park, shouting for everyone to hear in Bulgarian, "looks she is black." Now its hello nigger and white power. And I mean really folks, the Bulgarian word for black person is a similar word to nigger, but I hear them say Afro-american on tv and the news. So I know somebody has heard of that term.
So tomorrow I will miss work to go to the PC office to "talk" about this cuz clearly that is all that can be done. this is one of the low points in my life. Where being smart or good looking just isn't enough. Cuz people first and foremost see your skin color. And I know that it's not everyone. Not all Europeans are racist. But it does still exist and it's fucked up when good people like myself have to second guess who they are because of the comments of some dip-shit little kids who don't know any better. And although while writing this I slipped in some jokes here and there, this shit aint that funny, its real.
*DISCLAIMER* I do acknowledge the fact that not only white people are racist. Anyone can be racist. There are people who base their thoughts and perceptions on the color of people's skin. I'm reporting to you a first hand experience and these are just my opinions.
Monday, December 8, 2008
"Lets talk about sex baby..."
*Quick Disclaimer: I DO NOT know these people in the pic. Please proceed with reading now*
"Lets talk about sex baby..." I know you remember this imfamous song. Back in the day it was the joint. But not anymore people! I was speaking to my older sis yesterday, and she told me that my younger sis asked my mom how it felt when she had sex with her boyfriend. WTF?!?! No really, WTF?@?@ What do you suppose she meant when she asked my mom that?
Ok so my LITTLE SIS (Tiff) is a ripe young 15 yrs old. And I guess she is at that age now when she is curious and feels she needs to ask these questions. But really, right now. I think of her as my little girl, and I can't fathom why she would want to know about sex. And just to put this out there, why would she ask my mom how it felt? With her BF? I honestly thought my mom and her BF just cuddled at night. Do they really have sex? EEWWWWW How? Ok nasty thoughts of my mom doing stuff she shouldn't, lets move on.....
Back to LIL SIS. So my mom told my older sis (Ray) about it and Ray told Tiff that she didn't know how it felt. LIES. and I suppose I am the next person on the totem pole (hahaha totem pole) to get this question. But seriously, how DO you give the 'birds and the bees' talk to your kids?
Its important, I know. But then if she knows about it, will she do it? Will she want to know what it feels like even more after explained to her? Does she want to know what it feels like now? What the hell is she doing? But then if no one tells her about it, she will just find out about it on her own terms if she is really interested.
Oh my Goodness, why is this happeneing to me? This is just wrong on so many levels.......Oh Bozhe!
Ok, so Lets not talk about sex. Lets all stay virgins until I die, ESPECIALLY you TIFF!
Discipline.......
So as you know, I teach 9th and 10th grade. I love my 10th grade class. They are always willing to participate, they love interacting in class with me, and they aren't lazy. The 9th graders....hahahaha They are so lazy, I always have ti push them to do anything, and I often have to raise my voice when speaking to them. The boys mostly start to smell themselves and try to test me. Twas the situation today. A nice lil speaking activity about Christmas. We all sat in a circle, and I had small cut outs of different questions that those chose and answered aloud. One kid in particular, decides he wants to talk while I am trying to listen to the students answer the diff. questions. So I asked him to sit outside of the circle, and this fool had the nerve to utter "yes" under his breathe. When I mean I got so pissed, I could have hit the damn roof.
So I politely asked homeboy to step in the hallway. Now I hope everyone know I'm a gangsta, and I plays no games. I had to damn near curse shorty out in the hallway. I left him know that I was not scared to fail his ass right there on the spot. And that from now on he better show some damn 'act right' and better behavior in my class. It was all I could do not to slap the smug look off his damn face. These kids today boy I tell ya, they just want you to lay hands on them. I bet money if I took his ass behind the school for 5 good minutes we would have no problems! But yall all know, Shaun lov the kids.......
So I'm expecting his ass to be a brand new person, or else Ima really have to let his ass know who the BOSS is, and that's ME ladies and gentlemen.
The entire class consists of 26 students, but becuase they learn German and English the class is split. So I teach 13 students while the other 12 go to another class and learn German (for the 2nd period for example and for the 3rd period I get the other 13....). Homeboy was in the first 13. The second half of the class was on point. We started to sing jingle bells and almost everyone talked in the circle. I only had those two classes today so I was on cloud 1913 (lol) when my last class was over.
Saturday, December 6, 2008
5 Hours.....
Yeah, so 5 hours is how long it took me. To do what you ask? Leave a damn party! I was invited to a friends 'name day' and I prepared for the worst. I got there bout 7 pm and was ready to go by 7:10. lol It was that damn serious. Not only was the food wack, some damn fish smothered in MAYO adorned with shredded cheese, olives and pickles, but the music was even worse. Let's do the TWIST?!?!? Are you fuckin kiddin me.....And let's not talk about what my eyes saw. the dancing was just horrendous.....but let's just move on.
So this weekend was pretty decent. I hung out with Jojo and we went to Sofia to chill. It was pretty cool until I was verbally assaulted. When we first got to Sofia some dude started shouting "White Power." Looked me dead in my face and said it more than once. And if that wasn't enough, on my way home gettin' off the train, some dude tried to get flip wit the lip. This bitch had the nerve to tell me that I must have stayed in the sun to long! Excuse me. I kindly rebuttled back that I hadn't stayed in the sun too long, that I was fuckin black. He of course kept poppin off at the mouth and I just kept it movin'. Yeah, of all the days I've been to Sofia and on the train, I have never heard no shit like that at all. I mean lets be real, aside from the occasional blank stare, everyone pretty much loves me (and why wouldn't they). But this, is just ridiculous. But to be honest, if I gave 2 shits, it would be a big thing. I just want to share what happens with the people who want to know about it the most.
Aight hoes and tricks, its time for me to bounce (that means leave for all the "other" folks readin' this....shout out to Jojo!) Until next time.......
So this weekend was pretty decent. I hung out with Jojo and we went to Sofia to chill. It was pretty cool until I was verbally assaulted. When we first got to Sofia some dude started shouting "White Power." Looked me dead in my face and said it more than once. And if that wasn't enough, on my way home gettin' off the train, some dude tried to get flip wit the lip. This bitch had the nerve to tell me that I must have stayed in the sun to long! Excuse me. I kindly rebuttled back that I hadn't stayed in the sun too long, that I was fuckin black. He of course kept poppin off at the mouth and I just kept it movin'. Yeah, of all the days I've been to Sofia and on the train, I have never heard no shit like that at all. I mean lets be real, aside from the occasional blank stare, everyone pretty much loves me (and why wouldn't they). But this, is just ridiculous. But to be honest, if I gave 2 shits, it would be a big thing. I just want to share what happens with the people who want to know about it the most.
Aight hoes and tricks, its time for me to bounce (that means leave for all the "other" folks readin' this....shout out to Jojo!) Until next time.......
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