A Whole New world

Thursday, August 13, 2009

And it gets worse....

Today was such a horrible day, and the funny part is, it aint even over!

Woke up on the wrong side of the bed with cramps. Nothin to eat. It was so hot, and no one has called/emailed me about a damn job. And of course, my iPhone is GONE with the wind. For soem odd reason I had some hope left. Initially it kept going to voice mail when I called the number, but then it rang. I got my hopes up but no one picked up. After calling about 20 times I decided to give it up......

My mom called me sometime last night to tell me that my lil sis strolled in the house around 1:30 AM, altho her curfew is at 11:30. Her excuse: her phone was dead and she didnt know what time it was. How convenient! I was so angry. Lately I feel like she is kinda developing a bad attitude. She doesnt do any chores at home, talks back to my mom all the time, amd most importantly, started fucking up in school. I set very high standards for my lil sis, but she just doesnt see that Im trying to get her to do better. She thinks becuz she just turned 16 she can do what she wants cuz she is grown. Ha, she got another thing comin....So anyway, I had to come to the house today and smack fire out this lil girl. I told her ass to stop talkin back, jsut listen to what I gotta say and keep it moving. So this lil chicken shit had the nerve to say something to me so I smacker her ass. She stepped back and then started crying. I just went off on her ass. Im so tired of her actin up.....

Then I went to the AT&T store to get a new sim card for my phone. I spoke to a representative the day I lost the phone and he said I could get a FREE sim card, and wait 2 weeks to buy a new iPhone for about $200. Low and behold, this fucker LIED about EVERYTHING. The sim card was $25 (which I called to customer service to take care....the customer is always right!) and even if I wait, I still have to pay full price for an iPhone, the cheapest being $499. I was so fuckin digusting you know I was in the store crying. Its so unfair, and Apple think they so slick not having insurance in the iPhone. Bitch asses.......

Oh and did I mention its raining and hot.....

I just need to sit the fuck down somewhere and get a drink!

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Here Today...Gone tomorrow

This post has a somber tone to it to be quite honest. I got an iPhone not even 2 weeks ago. It was the happiest day of my life. I got all excited putting people's names and numbers in my phone. The iPhone is ultra convenient. I was able to hook up both my email accounts to the phone to I could check them at the touch of a button. Unlimited texting, and data so I can go on the internet at anytime for as long as I like. The touch screen is amazing and you can download all these applications, a lot of good ones for free. I got this app that gives you the recipes for 5400 alcoholic drinks. I downloaded Wuthering Heights (the entire book), bowling, ping pong, a dictionary, a cook book, and of course the phone comes equipped with a iPod!

And my MOST FAVORITE app ever, Paper Toss. So there are different levels of difficulty, essentially there is a bucket in an office and you have to flick your finger to toss the paper ball into bucket. But ah, there is a twist-There is a fan blowing and you have to have some type of technique to flick it correctly. I was thinkin how utterly ridiculous the thought of being so excited about playin a game that is all about throwin a damn paper ball into a bucket. But I kid you not, this thing is so addictive. I showed it to my lil sis, and she was lookin at me like "are you serious, you think this is amusing?!?!" And its so funny cuz if you miss the bucket and it goes too far, lets say to the next cubicle, you hear a lady's voice sayin stuff like "watch it im tryna bowl on my iphone or will you learn how to aim" Its so hilarious......

But all good things must come to an end right? I went to the Gap to buy some button-up shirts and some dress skirts. Well I went to the dressing room and had the phone with me. I came out and I cant remember if I had it or not, cuz next I went to check out some underwear. Well I bought the shirt I tried on then went to another store. When I got to the other store, I realized I didnt have my phone. Ran back to the Gap and it was a rap. The phone was no where to be found, and when I called it, it went straight to voicemail. Aaaahhhhhhhhh Im so depressed now. Like I cant even imagine life without a phone, but without my IPHONE. Im so sick without it. I was on the train and was so bored. I was extra confused about what to do. Couldnt play paper toss or bowl, so I was stuck with gazing at people. I just kept lookiong around at other people, at the ads on the train. It might take me a few days to get a new one. Might have a hook up who can get me one off the black market (hahaha) for a decent price. So Im waiting to hear back but if not, then Ill have to wait 2 weeks to get the iphone from AT&T.

No lie, I cried when I realized the phone wasnt coming. I wish people would be honest and return stuff they find. Im cryin on the inside right now......Im such a fuckin idiot!

Mom's Bday lunch

Went to luch with my mom, and big sis. I know my big sis looks so young. People think Im the older sis all the time cuz I am a bit more reserved and Im always so dressed up. Not to mention she is so thin and just has a baby face. Well we all pretty much look like my mom I guess. You be the judge......

Texas and regular sized drinks at the restaurant. Blue Hawaiian....uumm good!

I LUV NY

And so should you! Just snapped a few pics of how crowded Times Square was on a saturday night (the night we went to the arcade)

Plenty of artists sitting along the street harrassing people to sit in their lil chairs so they can sketch them. They do real skethces and caricatures.

NYC Yellow Cab...miss those....

Look at all the people

Kickin it with the Sisters

Man, I love my sisters! As much as I make fun of how dumb my lil sis is (and she do be actin dumb as hell) I love my lil baby to death! And my older sis, cant imagine life without her.

With that being said, we had a great night out at the arcade. We hit up Dave and Busters and was actin a fool! Renee (older sis) met up with Tiff (lil sis) and I in Times Square. We went up to the arcade and racked up a whole bunch of tickets and got some candy and other small prizes. The pics speak for themselves.....

Tiff just hit ther jackpot and got 380 something tickets.....

Some jump game....we all lost at it!

Renee being a loser.....dont she look cute tho!

I just won a whole bunch of tickets....I love arcades!

Merry Berry's Bday

My Mere Bere had a birthday recently, and of course this awarded me the opportunity to get get all glitzy and glamorous, and of course drink plenty of alcohol. Well Mere looked great, cant deny that, BUT I looked smokin! I decided to pop the tags off of a dress I got in Bulgaria from my favortie store, MANGO. It was that sexy silvery number you see below.

After dinner at this place called Brother Jimmy's, we went to this cute bar around the corner. It 2 dance floors and a rooftop bar. It was so cozy and nice. The music was great, old school R&B. The drinks were good. Mere obviously had a great time, grindin up on Ben like that....

A few things every respectable chick needs: a sexy minidress, nice pumps, and a alcoholic beverage! I'd just like to mention that while I was at the bar, some chick walked up to me NO LIE and said "If Im the only person to tell you, I just wanted you to know that you are working that dress and those pumps!" Ha, thats how fabulous I am......

Kickin it with Emily and (throwback) Ben. Havent seen this dude in like forever.....

And of course, a pic of me and the bday girl. Man, this was such a great night. Mere is such a crazy girl. She kept sayin some funny ass shit too.

singing *oh what a night*

Monday, August 3, 2009

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Sunday, August 2, 2009

Leaving Bulgaria

Well I know this is the post that most of you are interested in. And for good reason. I was supposed to be in Bulgaria til June 2010, then suddenly, within 3 days time I have to pack my bags and bounce. Well I have my reasons, and Ill quickly go over them.....

Ive been having this uneasy feeling within me for a while now. After the obscenity scratched on my door, I really started to go into a shell, and wonder if this was really for me. I didnt want to walk around the town, and felt uncomfy even walking down certain streets. I went to the Supermarket for obvious reasons, to eat and survive, but other than that, I went to work and came home. Since G lost her job, I stopped going to Sofia to hang out, and I started to really dislike the town. The fact that I had lived in this town for 16 months and people STILL looked at me in a funny manner, or stared at me, really upset me and made me uncomfy. Its not like I didnt try to connect with people, and I had. I knew a fe people in town, and I had lots of colleagues whom I adored. But the fact of the matter is, outside of work, I didnt hang out with those colleagues and the friends I had in town were all so much older. They were interested in hanging out and drinkin at the local restaurant in town every Fri, and nothing else. That gets boring after a while. I just got so frustrated with everything. I tried doing a project with the school and received no help, then tried to do something for the summer to no avail. I thought I was cool just doing nothing for the summer, but it honestly got so damn boring, and I was just at my wit's end.

I battled with leaving early for a long time. I thought it would look horrible on my record, you know, making a committment then leaving early. I thought in the long run it would make a HUGE difference if I applied to a job or would just be plain embarrassing when I came home early, knowing people werent expecting me home for another 10 months. And obviously, I felt like I would be a disappointment to my mom and myself, embarking on a journey and quitting early for selfish reasons. But then I really started thinkin of how unhappy I was. Just how I dreaded leaving my apt to walk to Kaufland to buy groceries, or how I hated to travel on the train to Sofia. So many negative feelings. Then I felt like I didnt want to me unhappy for another 10 months cuz nothing was gonna get better. As far as teaching, my students were mediocre, and Im sorry to say this, but one bad apple really does spoil the bunch. Although there were a few students whom I reallly liked, and really worked hard, I flet like that wasnt enough. For evey one good kid in my class, there were 3 more who didnt do any work, were extremely lazy, had bad attitudes, and really made it hard for me to do my job. And I refuse to stay in a place where 1. Im not feelin the situation, but 2. someone is making it hard for me to do my job cuz they could give 2 shits that Im there or not.

So all this to say, that I felt it was time for me to go. No need to try to survive for another 10 months, or push myself to do my job cuz my heart really wasnt in it. And at the end of the day, I need to do what is best for me.

Now there was a bit of drama surrounding my Italy trip, and Ill clear that up right now. I know how the PC rumor mill gets going and Id like to be very clear on what happened. So I put in my leave request form to go to Italy. I listed the dates as 11th-16th, but that was wrong. I changed the dates and in an email to my program director, asked if I needed to fill out another leave request form, or if I could just let her know what the new dates were (I was going from the 14th-23rd). She said no problem, but failed to put the amended dates into the official PC system. So when the system reported that I had not contacted anyone, and folks called my phone and got no answer, they went into a frenzy. They called my school (and the people there said they didnt know where I was...lol). Then they called Jeng, another vol whom I do not hang out with AT ALL and and confused as to why they would call her of ALL people (they ALWAYS see me with Matt). They checked with the airline (which reported that I had left the country for Italy BUT HAD NOT RETURNED YET) and the border patrol (which reported that b4 I left for Italy, I went to Macedonia for 1 day without permission).

Now I dont know if this is just me (or Amanda/Matt) but if they checked with the airline and it showed that my passport was stamped when I entered Italy, but WAS NOT stamped for entering Bulgaria again, wouldnt one think that I was STILL IN ITALY?!?! Furthermore, wouldnt it have been so EASY to just email me ans ask where the hell I was?!?! Instead, they did all this BS to put on a show, and for what?!?!

But at the end of the day I DO understand that its all about safety and they didnt "know" where I was. But when I spoke with my Country Director, she did acknowledge the fact that I sent the email with the amended dates, and that the fault was on my Program manager cuz she didnt update their system. WHATEVER. So the next issue was of course, my leaving to go to Macedonia with no permission. Becuase of that, she sent me an email saying that she was considering me for adminstrative separation (like firing me). Which was cool with me, cuz altho I decided to leave Bulgaria (I had been packed since early July) I didnt tell PC cuz I was waiting to come back from Italy. So I spoek with her and told her I was plannin on leaving anyway, and it all worked out in the end. I think she recognized what a hard time Ive had here and altho I did break the rules in the end, she was pretty cool about it. I was expecting my Country Director to have a nasty attitude but she was actually pretty cordial and pleasant. Even offered me a recommendation if I needed it! (Take that Jordan!!!....hahaha)

Other than packin all my shit, it was hard saying goodbye I must admit. I had to give my keys to someone at the school, and instead of sneaking out the country I really wanted to say goodbye to Mama Vanya at least. I went early in the morning Mon and we sat and chatted. We laughed, we cried, and we said our goodbyes. I really felt like shit after that, but I suppose life goes on right?!?!!?

The process was fairly quick from start to finish. I spoke with my country director thursday and told her I wanted to leave and she said they coudl get me a flight tuesday morn. I spent the weekend cleaning, and packin and preparing for my LaGuardia arrival. Went in to the office Mon, filled out some paperwork, and kept it moving. Had an interesting evening with Amanda. We had dinner, drank and hung out, talked shit about PC and other stuff. It was a great "last night in BG" Got on my flight with all my shit the next day and was surprised I only had to pay 25 euro for my extra heavy (and overwight) luggage (thank the lord). Flight from Sofia to Amsterdam, to Detroit to NY.

And how to I feel now? GREATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT (in that Tony the Tiger voice). It is a lil daunting figuring out my next step, getting a job, applying for school, finding an apt. But man, there is jsut a certain freedom I feel. I calmness in me that feels so relaxing. I feel at home amidst the bright lights and hecticness of the city. I saw my sisters and we went to the movies and hung out, met up with Poppa, and just have been chillin. The wight of a thousand worlds has lifted off my shoulders. I dont regret my decision perse, I jsut wish under different circumstances I was able to stay.

Had an interesting convo with the Safety and security director. She told me she was pushing for me to move my site. she thought after the last incident that I should move to another town. But it was my program manager who was stalling. Which is funny cuz when I brought my concerns to her about leaving early, she kinda brushed me off. Didnt even take me seriously....hahahaha I bet her ass know Im serious now.....

There you have it folks.....questions, comments, concerns?!?!

Milan

And in the random pics of the trip:

I was walkin around the city with one of the models and this random Italian offered to take pics of us. Cool, no biggie. But then he wanted to get our numbers, and take us for cafe and meet with us the next day. Look how old he looks....